Having a real test of my faith here

Well I must say my patience and faith are being tested to the max here today, My Father in-law is in Florida, had a heart attack and is undergoing a cath today with a couple of stents, My Mom was admited today at my hosp, and Man I WANT A SMOKE so bad, I did have 1 only one after work, I bummed on from a friend,It didnt even taste good but then I felt so quilty afterwards, I mean It has been 3 days since my last, but man all the stress today was alot to handle. I am snacking alot too and I don't really want to do that either, but I can help but have something to nibble on through out the day, I will hate to have my weight in next week. I must say this is very rough and at moments I wonder if I can last through it. I am doing the patches and yeah they help with the physical part for the most, but man the head games that this drugs plays on you is terrible. i feel like i am being tested on my will at times, I seem to want to cry easy too today or bite someones head off. I pray ever so much that it will get eaiser as the days go by, my god it has to get better or I will not make it.Just please keep me in your thoughts and pray for an easier day tommorow. I am hoping the my file goes up this week so that it can be in front of the review team next, then all I need is my surgeon appt, I pray this time goes by fast. Thanks everyone for all your support it is apprecaited more that you know. Well I have my new patch on and am ready for another day wish me luck. Thnaks everyone have a good day Hugs Jan

Prayers go out to you and all of your family, Jan.

Thank You very much I really need gods guidence and I feel like itis to far out of my reach right now, It is getting me down alot So thank you I can use all the help I can get right now. Thanks Jan

Hang in there Jan! You can do it. Sorry to hear about your family's illnesses. You and your loved ones will continue to be in my prayers. Hugs, Peggy

Jan- Please, if you have the chance today go to whyquit.com and READ. I am so proud of you for working so hard at this! You will be a "quitter" and a "loser", too! Remember, it all comes down to NOT TAKING EVEN ONE PUFF. Just repeat that mantra. I smoked over a pack a day for well over 20 years, had tried several times to quit, and finally DID IT by never taking another puff starting last December 5, 2005. Please get as much support as you can. Online support is just as helpful because there is someone there 24 hours a day. I am praying for you! -Karen