Having a rough time here

Hello Everyone, Well I am 24 hrs smoke free and I am very stressed, I mean I am wearing a patch, but man it seems like every minute of this day I have wanted a smoke,Please tell me someone that this will get better as the week passes? I know I have to be smoke free for at least 30 days till my surgery so I decieded to do it now and be a little ahead of the game,but man it is rough,I feel almost trapped in my own home afraid to do anything cause I "used to smoke doing that" and do want to "trigger" an urge, but there there reguardless. Then to top off my day the hospital where my surgery is to be done called and said I need to have a "few" more tests done, they said that they faxed all this to my PCP, but when I called them I told them that the letter he and I got did not have any hand written tests on it as was the paper I got today,I told them I alredy went today and had my blood drawn and I would call to see if they could add one more to it(thank god they did, I am a hard stick) and now they want a breathing test done, Man I thought I was done with all the pre-op testing stuff, but guess not, It just made a hard day even harder.I just has my appt with the physic Dr and that went well, and I go next week to see the NUT all that will be left will be the surgeron visit, hopefully that will be around the 1st of the yr, Soory for griping so much, just very stressed here, wanting a smoke REAL bad and have no one else to vent to, At times I feel so alone in this Journey, like I am the only one excited about it, I do go to my first support group meeting next week, I am hoping so much to find someone I can call and talk to if I need to that would be great, I have a couple of people that I work with that had the surgery, and at first they would talk about it now 6 mos out they don't seem to want to talk very much about it and I think I need a support person to talk with, I mean I do have my family (Hubby and Mom, and Daughter) and they "listen to me" all the time, but I think a support person would be great someone who would know all the emotions I am feeling. anyway thanks for leting me vent on here, I guess tying is a little help with keeping my hands busy LOL. Have a good nite eveyone.

Jan, As a former smoker I know what you are going through. I once quit for 3 years and then started again. It took me 3 tries to finally get it right and nowI have not smoked for the last 19 years. Hang in there! Sandy

Thanks Sandy, Wow 19 yrs thats a great thing, I hope to say that one day myself, but right now it is like hr by hr I fight this demon, but I am giving a good fight, I too have tried a few times in the past to quit failed at them all, I hope I can stand strong and make this my last attempt. I need to do this for SO many reasons so I have to win this time.Thanks Again for your words of support.

Jan, You can do it! My last cig was 10/2/05. After 28 yrs I finally laid it down. It was one of the hardest things I've done. The difference this time was that I did it for me. Not my husband that couldn't stand it. I never smoked in our home because it was my habit not my families'. But he and my daughters hated it. I'm proud of myself and am so glad I finally quit, but I still want it every day. Hang in there......you'll do it. Sherrie