Melancholy

Well here I am .....tomorrow is my birthday...my boyfriend is mad at me (which has become a regular thing these days). I have no plans, no presents and I am another freaking year older. However on the bright side, I have gone from 322 lbs to 205 lbs in a few short months. I do feel so much healthier this year and Thanksgiving did not go bad at all. It was actually the first time in years that I had total control. I didnt overindulge in anything and I even cooked without tasting everything I made a couple of times. I did not get sick and I even managed to have a few things I was not suppose too..but it was the Holiday and I decided a few bites was not going to kill me. Now to my vent. I am been proverbally stuck at 205, 207, 203 for weeks now. I am dying to see 199 and I feel like it is my scales way of playing a cruel ass joke on me. The clothes are still getting bigger on me..so I am losing inches...but the scale just will not drop to 199. I have tried the plateu buster diet....didnt work for me..I have stopped eating and only did liquids..didnt work..i have tried eating all the time...that definately didnt work. So I have stopped. There is no worse feeling post weight loss surgery emotionally I think. You keep feeling like..well this is the end of the road..no more weight loss for me. This is as far as I am going to get. And if it is..I am ok with that..I mean hell...over 100 lbs is nothing to laugh about right? I have gone from a size 28/30 to a size 18/20, my tops are 14/16. Not bad at all. Sorry for the vent..but I am sitting here feeling sorry for myself today when I should be feeling just the opposite. www.myspace.com/fmfmorgaine

First of all HAPPY BIRTHDAY I started at 240 and quit at 180. Now I am pushing 200 again. Do not let this happen to you. Do not settle for what you have done just keep at it and live. Do not let the scales control yourlife. I am now back to regaining control of my life again and feel good about it. Take care and enjoy life! Happy Holidays!

I understand. Of course the scale won't move. You want it to get under the big number but it won't. Don't you know the scale is like the devil. Why should it give you what you want. Hang in there. It will happen. I'm writing this for myself as well as I sit at 301. I can almost taste twoterville. I know sometime it will happen, but I want it now. Make sure you write when it does happen so we can help you celebrate. Dianna

Thank You both so much. Yeah I am dying for it to happen..which means it will not for as long as it can reasonably do so. I have not stopped losing inches..just pounds. AGain that damn scale. I dont weight myself daily..or even weekly for that matter but I certainly have increased the power of the damn little scale since getting close to 200. Is is so bad to wanna be 199?? I was wanting to be that by my birthday, which is tomorrow..but thats not going to happen now. Maybe by Christmas