stressed out today

Hello everyone, well I am still a newbie here, awaiting to have surgery i am in my 12 wk program that is a requirment for my surgery havent done bad lost 2 pds so far in 3 wks, but last nite my best friend of 28 yrs her mother died (she was lik a 2nd mom to me for many yrs) I work in the ER at my hospital and she died there, I got awoken by my mom coming in to my house because I did'nt hear the phone and she did'nt want me to find out when I went to work,I went to the hosp and was with the family whom I have been close to and known most of my life, I feel so very sad ,my friend(her daughter) lives in England and was not here when she died, she is flying in tommorow, but I just feel so stressed right now, all I want is something eat, I came home from the hosp last nite and are 2 sf fudge bars, and a bag of popcorn, I guess I am a stress eater,also I am 1 wk out from my quit smoking date, I am so stressed, She had COPD real bad and had smoked for many yrs before quitting 4 yrs ago, but it was to late by then, you would think that would do it for me,but in some strange way I just kept lighting up today, and I am wanting so bad to go to Denny's for a hugh grand slam breakfast, I know this is not what I need to do I just feel this terrible empitness in my gut that just does not seem to get filled today, Sorry so neg on here just needing to vent some place , thanks for listening.

Hang in there Jan. We're here for you. If you can, try to exercise instead of smoking or eating. Or try to each veggies instead. I know it's tough. Also, it's ok if you need a little chocolate to get you through. Instead of having a bag, try to just have a couple. When I feel the need for something "way out there" I indulge myself, but make myself work out to make up for it. Good luck Sharyn

I'm so sorry about your best friend's mom, Jan. It's understandable that you would comfort yourself with food because most of us on this board have. Does your hospital have a chaplain or a counselor you could speak with? My husband had a very debilitating stroke three years ago that may yet cost him his marriage and he (still) smokes like a chimney and also drinks a six-pack a night and eats like there's no tomorrow (he's got to weigh about 390) Addictions are very difficult to overcome. Hang in there and know that all of us are here for you. I'll say a prayer tonight for your friend and her mom! (((hugs))) Joy

Thank you Sharyn and Joy for you words of comfort,I just don't do deaths well never had even with people I don't know. But I am still going to go forward with my quit date on Friday, and I am going today to join a gym. I am just trying to be here from my friend and her family cause I know they will be here for me when it comes to my Mom. Thank you again for your comfort it really does help. Just seems like the past couple of weeks I have been pulled in 6 different directions at the same time, but I am a woman who do what I have to do. Thank You