Missing all of you..

Hey its me Laura.. I just wanted you to know I am doing much better. My depression is getting under control with the help of a new medication cymbalta. It has helped me in so many ways. My situation hasnt changed, I am still flat broke, have bald tires, a stack of bills. But I am looking at life a lot differently. I am looking into a long term solution to my financial situation. I am going to go back to school and work on finishing my studies and get a degree. Then I can be much better prepared to earn more money and take care of my life better. I am working out more strenuously and walking at least 15 miles per 8 hour shift at Walmart. I am going to try to start swimming again at the hotel as soon as my budget allows. I want to lose 30 more pounds and then look into the panni surgery. But if it doesnt happen I am still happy with my body. Saggy and baggy in areas, but not filled with yucky fat. I got a nice flippy haircut and a friend touched up my hair and added some brightness to it. I feel like a new woman, and now just need a new man. LOL Well I have to get in the shower and get ready for work, but I just wanted to check in and let you know that I am doing so much better and feel like living again. My son and I won Kings Island tickets and I am counting pennies and searching couch cushions for change for gasoline to make the trip. I hate to pass up a chance to go and show my son that I can fit on all the rides now. The last time he and I were there together it took two men to attempt to push the bar down and it still wouldnt close. I was so ashamed I wanted to die right there. But now if I can afford the gas we are planning on going next Weds. Gas is hovering at $3.00 in this part of Ohio.. Anyone know what its like in Columbus and Cinci???? I just dont want to get there and get stranded. LOL We are gonna brown bag and take water bottles and I have a free parking pass so the only expense we will have is the gasoline. The oil companies sure have us eating out of their hands. Darn it.. LOL You all have a wonderful Sunday... Hug your Kids and do something fun and relaxing just for you.. Put on some music and dance.. Go fishing... Sing with the car window down on a drive in the country. Get outside tonight and watch the meteor shower.. Just enjoy this day.. What a gift it is.. Loving Hugs Laura in Ohio ( who happens to be very single, OH men)

Geezy cow. REmind me to get a new picture for my profile.. This one is just plain stinky.. Love ya Laura

Hello Laura, im so glad to see you on here again, ive been wondering about how youve been doing.. also glad to hear about the tickets thats great, you'll have a wonderful time ride a rollercoaster for me will ya I've finaly had my nutrition eval last week and i have a test every week now till the end of august.. next week is the psych eval up in akron. well all my tests are up in akron. well im off for now, keep up the great work God bless you Paula

Blessings Laura... so glad to see you are dealing better. Depression is a terrible thing. Gas is aroud 3 ish in COlumbus too.... wish I could say otherwise. I need to get a new pic on too... mine is pre surg! Enjoy your day at Kings Island!! WhAT FUN... And exciting that you are going to school! THat is a great idea and way to take control of your life (Ok God, control 1st, then you follow) but you know what I mean.... Keep smiling Pam

Laura, I have been on cymbalta. I love it. It has helped me in so many ways. I still get depressed but not as myuch as I did. It is a great med. My daughter is also on it. She loves it. It curves your appetite as well. Just drink pleanty of fluids with this med. Hugs barb

Barb, You are looking absolutely fantastic. I am so happy for you because I well remember some of your very blue days. The surgery certainly doesnt cure all of lifes problems but it helps me to deal with them in much more positive ways. I used to run to the freezer for mint choco chip ice cream, now I hop on the bike and work the stress out that way. Life is so different now.. Take care of yourself. Love ya Laura

Hello Laura! It was great to 'see' you again! Let us know when you get that new picture up, I would love to see how have blossomed. (Isn't that a lovely word?) I am also so very glad to hear how you are dealing and accepting the positive changes in your life. It seems to me that a lot of people post until they are a few months out. Maybe I am nosey, but I am interested in so much. Barb (Ann D.) is one who has posted a lot and I have learned so much. Thanks so much for sharing ! hugs, Barbara

Barbara, My days are far from perfect, and my stress level is sky high.. Thank God for antianxiety meds. I am not ashamed to admit that I need medical intervention to be the person I love being. My anxiety and depression crippled me as much as my super morbid obesity for years and if the meds help I am going to take advantage of the medical miracle. My finances continue to be the worst worry for me and most likely will for a long time. Tommorrow I am supposed to be in Cols for my sisters cancer surgery and I havent a dollar bill to my name. I am searching for coins ( litterally) as I am cleaning to find enough money to put gas in the car. I hate living like this, but it is sure better than the physical and emotional abuse that I had to deal with in my 20 year marriage. I will work on getting my updated picture back on my profile. But if I cant I can send you some pics to your e mail. I hate the way I photograph, I always look so stern and the real me doesnt come through in the pics. But it will at least give you some Idea of the new and improved me. Lots of Love and Hugs Laura