The 4th :)

Today is the fourth and while i sit in my house watching my neighbors so graciously let of their fireworks, im in my house. They are nice (the fireworks that is) but i wish i could of at least gone somewhere and seen profesional ones, I know this will be one of my wow moments when i can finaly get my wls, it will be a freedom of more than independance just for myself, i will be able to help my children feel free, free to go for walks and not fear that "mom cant do it" free to ask mom if she would like to go to the park and not hold back now cause they know the pain im constantly in and the fear they hold inside cause they don't want to hurt moms feelings cause they know that i cant. I have always tried to give my children the freedom they need to socialise and be kids, but my children are such great kids and worry about me first most of the times, i realy do want them to have a life ouside me being so unhealthy. I wish that by next fourth of July we can not only celebrate independance for our country but for our own individual independance from me being so unhealthy.. this is my prayer this is my wish..Dear God help me get the wls i need soon. God bless all and i hope all have a great fourth. Paula

Paula, Next year you will be letting off fire crackers like a kid. your kids are going to be so happy having their healthy mom. being fun and full of the same energy they have. Your in for a ride. I cant wait to see you get started Happy Forth Hugs barb

Barb, me either.. i want to have energy... and i want to "out run" my kids..lol.. i loved running as a young adult there was nothing freer.. thanks for your coments God bless you Paula