severe depression has come back

I haven't posted on here lately, just been lurking, but I'm starting to get severely depressed again and could use some help. Has anyone else had this problem so soon after surgery? I've thought about checking myself into a hospital, and seeking some help but I just can't bring myself to the fact that I would be in a mental facility(crazy house). I've had problems in the past but just not this bad. I have a lot on my mind and quite honestly I can't handle it right now. My husband and I split up a month ago and I don't make enough money to keep my house and this has really weighed heavily on my mind. I've applied for several jobs over the past two months but haven't had any luck. My son(13 years old) is out of school now and we told him about our seperation/divorce and he has taken it pretty well. He has lots of issues(ADHD, bipolar, and tourette syndrome) and due to the stress or our seperation he has become very hyper, active and compulsive at times. Basically his medications aren't working right now, and the doctor won't listen to us. I could really use some advice and thoughts from others, or maybe even an angel. Thanks for allowing me to vent!

Josie, My thoughts and prayers are with you right now. I have seasonal depression every now and then. I understand what you are going through. I just lock myself up in my bedroom and cry.. sleep .. then I might be ok for awhile and do it again. Since the surgery, my depression has gotten much better, because I do feel better about myself. Just know if you need to talk to someone.. you can contact me. I know I don't have the answers. But I do have good ears and I am a good listener. Hugs Julie

Oh, Josie, contact a doctor on Monday! Depression is a horrible thing to endure, but totally treatable if you reach out for help.

Been there ....done that! My husband walked out on me and our son just after our son had gone through some intensive therapy related to abuse issues. My son is adopted and it was the worst time for this child. He was starting high school, had completed therapy over the summer and was doing better and that jackass turned his world upside down. I had to redesign my life and make some major changes. I had to sell my house and move into a smaller house in order to reduce expenses. I also had to redesign my finances. Get to the doctor and start an anti-depressant. Going through separation and divorce is so stressful. Having to cope with a child who needs you 24/7 does not help. My son was also ADHD and an abuse victim from his birth family so I can relate. Hang in there Josie. You already started to make things better for yourself by improving your health and you look great in your picture. Get to the doctor! Sandy

Josie, I am going thru the same thing. I have been so depressed. It ha**** me hard. I just dont know where to go from here. I have been sick to my stomach. My husband refuses to divorce me. I went camping with him for a week. I had the worst week of my life. I tried to work it out again. He *****ed the whole time.Treated me like ****t . My nerves are shot. You have reached a big step you got out. How did you do that. I want the courage to do that. If my daughter didnt live here I would be gone. She graduated and is starting her new job. I am just tired of her tieing me down to this marraige. I told her today she needs to save up for a apartment. I will end up living in a apartment and having nothing. I wonder if this is how I want my life to turn out. I wonder if maybe I am going thru menapause and this will go away. I do have a friend. He told me after I came home. He will have nothing to do with me until I divorce my husband. Im sick to my stomach. I dont know what the future holds for me. I wish I had a crsytal ball. I dont know what to do. Do you get socail security for your son. Is you husband helping you pay the bills. Are you getting support. You may need to down size and move to a cheaper place. Like I said I wish I had that crsytal ball. I am sleeping all the time. I have no energy. I am drained from it. I dont feel like doing nothing been this way all week. A full week with him has done me in. Best wishes Hugs Barb

Josie, First of all coming to support group might help. Believe it or not, a lot of us have been through some of the same things. One thing we don't talk about very often is what a mental journey this is, everyone talks about the physical, but the mental can really throw you for a loop. It's not fair, because life in not fair or I would be a size 3. Don't think you are alone, we all go through mental things once in a while that just about strip us bear. I don't talk about my mental journey very often because being a preachers kid, you just don't air you dirty laundry out there. I started my journey because I was over 400 pounds and even though I had been married for 15 years, I had found out he was gay after 7 and stayed with him because I had no where to go. I was so depressed and felt so worthless that I stayed with a gay man rather than go find happiness. I slowly brought myself out of depression inch by inch. First I went back to school and finished my degree and then I got a job. It took me years, but I did it. Then I decided to have surgery so that I could lose weight and meet someone that really loved me physically and mentally. I met my current husband about a year after my surgery and we are expecting our daughter any day. My life is totally different now. The only reason that I am sharing is so that you know that we all have things that we have gone through, you are not in this alone. Reach out to us. Sometimes when your depressed, you have to not focus on the total picture but just on baby steps. Focus on one thing at a time and take baby steps. One important thing to remember is that this will pass, everything always does. Think back over the other things in your life and you will realize that just like those, you will come out of this. Let me know if I can help Cheryl

I am a licensed Social Worker and also my husband has been clinically depressed for many years. Get help! The support group is a good idea but if you are thinking about the hospital you need more intensive therapy. First of all, are there thoughts of hurting yourself or others? 2nd do you have a plan? If you have a plan go to the hospital now! Otherwise seek a counselor. Also, there are outpatient programs at hospitals that are very useful. If you are not on an anti-depressant see your family physician. These will take around 4weeks to kick in so this will not take care of the here and now.Just the first 2 visits will help release the anxiety, pain and uncertainty. When I am overwhelmed with my husbands health (Cardiomyopathy with implanted dfribulator) and the responsibility of 2 young children I go a and see someone. Sometimes you just need someone who will not judge you and let you cry for an hour. (Expensive hour but worth it!) When you are depressed you have to have someone else help you, you cannot carry the burden alone, and believe it our not people want to help. Let them. Mel

Thank all of you for listening and giving advice. I'm going to seek help!! I love everyone on here, you'all are great and I appreceiate the concern.