Feeling Depressed and FAT!

This past week I have been feeling bloated and FAT! I had an appointment with my WLsurgeon last Friday and gained 2 lbs since my last visit, but not too depressed over that because it was a morning appointment last time and a late afternoon appointment this time. What I am feeling depressed about is the fact that I feel like I am always hungry. Today I ate: B- 1 cup multigrain cheerios and 1/4 c of 1% milk S- 2 string cheeses L-shrimp salad on a plate with tomatoes S- BAD Choice--Pringles later on I had a protein shake made with Skim Plus D-2 fish sticks and 1/4 c of mac and cheese 68 oz of water The scale does not show it but I feel like I look like I am putting on some weight. Everyone tells me I look the same and don't look like I am gaining and that I look great but I feel like I look like I did before WLS as well as that real bloated feeling. Is this a normal feeling??? The other night I had a dream that I GAINED ALL MY PRE OP WEIGHT BACK...Woke up in a panic and then releived it was just a bad dream, but since then I have been feeling the way I do physically and mentally. Marianne

Marianne, The fear of being fat and gaining all the weight back must cross all of our minds...I know it does mine....we are so used to failing...losing and gaining...over and over, that of course it's a real fear. And one that is not without cause. We unfortunately could gain the weight back. Knowing that and truly understanding that this is only a "tool" is probably good for us. Otherwise we would slip back very easily. Bloating happens to all everyone. Skinny people too!!! after they eat or during their period...so bloating is normal. I understand exactly what your saying about feeling fat. The other night I was lying on the couch and I looked at my stomach and I thought OMG..I am sooo fat....just like how I felt before surgery....(but now I'm 100 lbs lighter). I thought about it and I'm much more critical now of my body. I think I avoided really looking at my body or in a mirror before, and now I pick myself apart. But when I put my size 10 pants on and walk out the door, I know I look better, and I'm sure deep down you do tooo!!!! That's why your a mad shopper now!!!! So, as long as you keep your eating in check and follow the rules, you wont get fat again. Spring is in the air....walking....it will help things. Janean

Marianne, We are twins. I have had that exact dream a few times. It is a nightmare isnt it? The last thing I want to happen to me to become the "fat girl" again after all I have been through. I didnt go through all of this to become ms. big butt again! I am scared to death it will happen one day or another. I am pretty sure that feeling is normal but I just wanted to let you know you aren't alone. Take care. Tavia