Need some thoughts.....Long sorry

Goodmorning everyone. I have a question. Well really a comment and i need your opinions. Ok first of all i have to let you know that i am the type of person who gets bored and restless very easy. I am a registered nurse and i change jobs often, which is ok because i have lots of experience in different areas and i think that makes me more of an asset in some cases. Last March i decided to go back to school, but it wasnt really in nursing although it could be related. I decided to learn esthetics. I love skin care and really always wanted to get into the beauty industry but being overweight with low self esteem i didnt think i could do it. When i decided that i really was going to do the weight loss surgery i decided that i could also go to school and the two would go together. I love school but i took a leave of absence to take care of all the medical stuff. While on my leave and being home with the kids i really started to enjoy being home so much with them. I realized that maybe i am being selfish going back to school right now. The kids like me being home so much. When i am in school i have to spend time there , then come home and study....I have to decide soon if i am going back to school or not. I have half of the course done but still owe 300 hours. I am really thinking about giving up the school until the babies are at least in school they are only 2 and 3. I have to spend alot of time on me since the surgery and going to school is to much i think. Between working out, going to the docs, and then school ,,,well i think its selfish of me. At least if i went back to work it would be to contribute to the household right........THanks for listening i am probably not going back to school right now but i just wanted to know what others think about my situitation. Oh and to add in i only go to school when hubby is home so i dont need a babysitter, the problem is that hubby works some midnight shifts so he is dead tired on some of the days i was in school and i dont think that is fair to him or to the kids because he dosent have the energy to take them out or do things with them....I know this was a loooooong post but i have been fighting with this for a while now and its driving me nutsssssss...Thanks again...LisaMarie

Lisa, I was a single parent when my older girls were young. I am a nurse too, so my hours were long & I changed shifts some of the time. I always had babysitters. I missed being with them. I think they really resented me not being there, although they understand I had no choice.I would stay home for a while, then go back to school...You asked! Linda

Thanks Linda.....

LisaMarie, Hun I do not have kids so I really can not understand but I can feel for you.... If you feel the time is not right to go back to school then don't pu**** if your not really into it then your mind will not be there. You will be thinking of home and the kids. Give it some time and see what happens in a year or so. Just some thoughts hun, I wish you the best... ~hugs~ Debra P

Thanks Debra, i agree with you and Linda......just needed some outside confirmation....still have those insecurities lol...

Hi LisaMarie, And I think that you have already answered your questions yourself--You want validation for your common sense decision. You love your children, and you love your husband ,and you love youself--You want what's best for you all. I have found that since my surgery I think more about giving to others--since I am also giving something special to myself! You are feeling better about LisaMarie and you want the people you love to share that good feeling with you. You aren't being selfish to want so much--but you can't spread yourself so thin. Make a list and see where your priorities lie! It will be pretty easy then , and everyone around you will be happier! Especially LisaMarie! Be Blessed and have a wonderful New Year--Enjoy your family--those babies won't be babies forever and your husband deserves to have his beautiful wife with him! Marian S.C. 242.4/190.4/goal 125-130

Marian you are so right. Thank you so much!

Hi Lisa, I gave up a full time (and well paying) job to stay home when my first son was born. It was never my plan, but when I was about 5 months pregnant, I knew in my heart there was no way I was leaving that baby! Anyway, it was a struggle financially but I never regretted it! I ended up being a full time mom for 10 years (my second son was born 3 years after the first). When my youngest started 1st grade last year and was in school full days, I went back to work. It worked out great for me too, I was so afraid to go back to work after 10 years, but I found a great job about a mile and a half from the house and their school and I started back at work in September when they started school. I love being back at work now but if I had to do it over again, I would do it exactly the same way! I loved being home with my babies until they were in school. I can see in your heart you know what you want to do, so follow your heart! By the way, I also went back to school when they were older, just for fun, to take some networking classes. You will be so much more relaxed when they are older and you know that you are doing what's best for all of you! HUGS, Vi

Thanks Violet...........

You have a lot on your plate right now, so only you know what you can and can't handle. Have you ever considered SUNY Empire State College? That is how I finished my B.S. degree (and then went on to get my masters) as a single mother of two teenagers a few years ago. Its part of the State University system, but geared towards working adults. You work independently and one on one with a mentor through the college who helps set you up. Then, you can work independently with a tutor, do distant learning or even some on line courses. YOu can also get credit for experiential learning if you can articulate what you've learned well enough in a certain area. It changed my life! I know they have branches in the NYC area. It is the same price as any SUNY college and you can apply for financial aid. I don't know if what you want to study is available, but they help you design your courses to meet your personal goals. Its an awesome experience. Just something you might want to consider. Good luck to you in whatever you do.