Still See The Larger Version Of ME!

Yesterday the Principal of my school was telling me how wonderful I look --tall and thin--I told her that when I look in the mirror I still see myself at 265 lbs. I am now wearing a size 12 SLIM in jeans and still feel fat when I look at myself in the mirror. This thought has been developing moreso now that I am at a normal weight than it has in the past. I am also deathly afraid that I will gain back all the weight I lost especially now since I have bought all new clothes for the summer and winter seasons. I worry too because I think if I were to gain weight back and need to wear larger clothes my DH would have a fit since I have given away ALL of my before clothes and now own nothing but my smaller clothes. I think I am going to have to discuss this feeling more in detail at my next therapy session because it is beginning to scare me. When I get on the scale especially when I think I have gained weight the scale tells me I am still the same weight 150. Why do I think this way? I also worry that I am eating too much and will stretch my pouch to the point where I will devour food like I use to. I still follow the rules of water, protein, vitamins. Could this be because now I am within normal limits with respect to weight and BMI? Am I beginning to go ? Marianne

Marianne, I feel EXACTLY the same way. I think (and hope) our minds will catch up to our bodies. I still see the fat girl looking back at me in the mirror. Pictures I see a different person but the dreaded mirror ! Mary

Your not alone Marianne. I have taken off 110 pounds and I still see the 273 pounder in the mirror. My surgery was March 2004 and I hope I stop seeing that fat person someday. I am always asking my companion do I look fat??? Want to loose another 20 pounds and I will be happy then. Linda 273/163/150