Nerves kicking in....

Ok i am now 11 days away from my new begining, my new life, something that i have been wanting for at least the last 4 years now, so why am i getting so nervous and restless. I have been through many surgeries before so i kind of know what to expect. I have a great support system. I think that i am just worried what if something goes wrong, I have 4 beautiful children. What if i leave them without a mother. I know these are normal fears. Its just not fair, why couldnt i do this on my own without the surgery. I have tried and tried so hard to loose weight on my own but i always failed. Im sorry im rambeling. Just had to get that off my chest. I have been acting towards my family like this is going to be a breeze, dont want them worrying about me to much. I know how hard all of this is going to be. I know alot of you guys can realte to me so its easier to let out how i am feeling on here. Thanks for listening.......

Lisa Marie, I believe it's normal to be feeling the way you are right now and to be fearful of something so unknown to you. I think most of us have been there and I can say that I don't believe it will be as bad as you imagine. I do know that some people have problems but there are many more of us who breeze right through. In my case, I had open surgery and the pain was minimal. The biggest problem was I was thirsty and they only give you those darn little pink sponges to wet your lips and tongue. I know we've all always failed in the past - but this time YOU WILL SUCCEED - of that, I am sure. It will be 'THE FIRST DAY OF YOUR NEW LIFE" and I truly believe you'll love it. We are all here to help, love and guide you. Feel free to contact me if you'd like to talk off-line. You'll be in my thoughts and prayers. Cindee 310/243/?

LisaMarie, Hun I know how you are feeling, it is almost like fustration that YOU have to do this in order to get your life back. I know I was upet with myself for a while that I had to take such drastic measure to lose weight. Almost like why me feeling... Hang in there hun it will be ok, try and think about all the people that have lose so much weight and feel awesome. Yes you can have complications and you are normal to think about them but know you are where you need to be at that time. ~Hugs~ Think about all the things you can do with your kids once you lose weight and are feeling better. THAT is awesome. I went through some rough times myself with head hunger but knowing that it will pass was a big help. It is not easy hun and will take so much time but it is so worth it and so are YOU. If you need to talk hun just let me know. ~Hugs~ Debra P 285/213/125??

Real fears, thats what they are. Glad you spoke/wrote about them it tends to help. All I can do is offer you support and tell you things will be so much better with this investment in yourself. Like all things there are some risks, but does doing nothing like staying at an unhealthy weight have its risks? of they do. Women who have heart attacks die 78% of the time, unlike men who get 2nd chances with angio and bypasses women are more likely to die. Your children want you around for a LONG time and healthy during that time. You are doing the best thing for yourself. Know in your heart you'll be ok. best of luck and can't wait to see that smile as the new life begins Bill

Thanks for your support....You guys are great!

LisaMarie let me share what someone told me. you can't go through this wondering what if you didn't make it. You need to think what if you did. How much better would your life and your family's be with you healthier and more energetic. Just knowing that you would be around for them longer and the quality of that time more improvedthen the risks you take to get to that better life seem definitely worth it

Hey Lisa I can so relate, before my surgery, I probably wrote the same exact post and thought about leaving my kids and why couldn't I do it on my own. But 11 months later it is the best thing I did for me and them. I do so much more with them and am so better to myself. It is hard going through it alone and trying to be strong when you are so nervous. But I kept as busy as I could to keep my mind occupied. You will get through this and while it is only the beginning. The ending is so worth it. We will be praying for you Tina

Thanks again, your support on here means alot to me....Its nice to have people to talk to that can relate to what you are feeling..............