Wierd

I guess that is the best way I can describe my feelings as of late. I am almost 10 months out (this week) and have lost just over 140 pounds. I feel wierd. I don't recognize myself when I see full length mirror image. I hold a pair of pants and think no way will I fit in these. The biggest thing was yesterday I picked up my wedding and engagement rings from being resized. They brought them down 4 sizes. The rings look so freaking tiny now! As I told my hubby last night, throughout the years my clothes have gotten bigger and smaller with each weight loss attempt and then eventual regain, but I never changed my rings. It has a permanency feeling to it, which is very wierd for me. Also yesterday was a wierd day because when I weighed myself (tuesday AM is my "official" weigh in day) I am 198 pounds!! I NEVER remember being under 200 in my life. Obviously I have been but not really as an adult, maybe a senior in high school. Don't get me wrong, I feel WONDERFUL!! I would have the surgery over again in a heartbeat, I am just dealing with body image crap right now. "They" say you lose the weight twice, once physically and secondly in your brain. I can't wait for my brain to catch up. I still see myself as the largest person in the room, and even though I know what other people weigh sometimes, I think well sure even though the scale says I am less, I am still bigger, but am I really? I don't know, just babbling now!! Thanks for listening!!!! Janet

Janet, Hun I can some what understand though I am only over 3 months out and my body is changing and it sure does feel weird. Though it really is a great feeling it can take some time for the mind to catch up to the body. I still find myself saying "I am not going to do this until I am at goal" meanwhile I can do new things as I lost almost 65 lbs aready. Hun congrats on your weight loss... Awesome job hun.. You should be proud.... Take care and thanks for sharing... ~hugs~ Debra P 285/221/125??

I can totally relate!! I too had my engagement & wedding rings resized and I told my husband that this is a premanant thing because I cant have them made bigger!! Lisa 371/341/218/140

Lisa- It's a wierd feeling, very permanent!!! Congrats on the great job you have been doing as well! Janet

Thanks Debra!!! I am proud of what I have accomplished, don't get me wrong. It just feels wierd!! That's all!!! Janet

Janet, darlin', you have so much to be proud of, give yourself some time to adjust mentally. You made a lifetime commitment when you got on the O.R. table but the surgery doesn't take care of your head. I still have body image issues: people keep telling me my clothes are too loose, but I always wore them loose because then I could "hide" in them better. Just be kind to yourself and remember that Rome wasn't built in a day...and you can't change a lifetime of body images in a day either. L*

Thanks Laura- You are definately right!!! I need to strat focusing more on the positives of my new body!!! Janet

Janet, I hope to get those feelings! Right now, my rings are getting bigger, my shoes, my bracelets, ankle bracele****ch. But those places were thin already! I need to lose in some OTHER places! You are bound to adjust in time, and then I'm sure you'll love it! Linda

Linda- It is amazing to me how thinner my fingers, wrists, ankles, ect look. DOn't worry the rest will come! Janet

Janet, Hi. I can kind of relate to what you are saying. Just a few minutes ago, someone at work said to me, "OMG you are half the person you were," and I was like really? I said, "you can tell I lost weight?" I still feel like you cant really notice it....because I dont notice the difference. My clothes are smaller and then I feel good, but for the most part I still just see fat. You lost more than double what I have so the difference has to be tremendous. Janean