SURGERY POSTPONED TO 6/28

Hi everyone, It has been a hell of a day. I was in the operating room being put under anesthesia (drugged and asleep) and the anesthesiologist was unable to view my vocal cords to place the breathing tube. I guess my larynx swelled and it made it impossible and unsafe to continue. My procedure was immediately aborted. Apparently they were bagging me or something because I did have a belly full of air (all gone now). Dr. Simon came into the OR and I was crying at that point. I completely understood and wanted to be safe, but oh my God, this surgery takes so much emotional preparation I just fell apart. I have had over 20 surgical procedures including one just last April and have never had any problems being intubated, never. And last year I weighed almost 15 lbs more than I do now. I just don't understand what happened. I do believe everything happens for a reason though, so there's a reason it wasn't today. I'm just struggling with "letdown" emotions right now. I really wanted today over with. So I guess it will be on the 28th, and Dr. Simon said he is going to request an anesthesiologist who is very good with fiberoptic placement of the breathing tube. That whole conscious intubation thing scares the heck out of me to be honest, so I better have some good drugs, and good numbing medicine. That's it for now my friends. I will keep you all posted. Thanks for your support. All my best, Deb

HI DEBRA, SORRY TO HEAR ABOUT THAT. BUT EVERYTHING IS GOONA BE OKAY KEEP YOUR HEAD UP THE 28TH WILL BE HERE BEFORE YOU KNOW IT I AM A FIRM BELIEVER THAT EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON!! SO DON'T YOU WORRY, BEST WISHES AND MY PRAYERS ARE WITH YOU. LOVE ,NICOLE

Im sorry to hear that Debra. But you are right all things happen for a reason. God didnt want you to have Surgery today. Wrong time and wrong place. Hang in there its a couple more weeks. I know it sounds easy but we must believe your Dr. wasnt comfortable with this anesthesiologist that was with him. Better safe then sorry deb. I will keep you in my thoughts and Good Luck to you. KEEP THE FAITH!!! Louis

Debra, OH, I am so sorry hun.....~Hugs~ I know how you must feel and it really does upset you. I know that you believe like I do that things happen for a reason but sometimes it just plain old sucks when something like this happens..... Hang in there hun and you will do fine now that they know what has to happen....~hugs~ Take care Debra P

Deb, I am sooo sorry you had to go through this, I know how the emotions are the day of.....and to be THAT FAR......Well, I truely am sorry......But, I also can see where it all happens for a reason, perhaps there was someone looking out for your best intrest.....and..its always better to be safe than sorry. Sooo we start a new count down for you, and this next time....we will allll be cheering for you !!! Keeping you in my prayers.....and I know how you MUST be feeling now !! Love U Brenny

I wanted to respond to each one of you who have sent me emails with love, hugs, prayers and support after yesterday's OR complication and postponement of my surgery. My email box has been overflowing with love and I will write everyone back, I promise. Just a bit tired. In fact it's 3:21 a.m. right now and I can't get back to sleep (went to bed at 8:30). I truly believe that all things happen for a reason. I had angels watching out for me yesterday. There was a reason why my surgery could not get past the intubation. Perhaps I didn't have the right anesthesiologist that could handle potential problems with my blood pressure, or maybe something else was going to happen. Who knows. I just know that although I may be fighting a roller coaster of emotions right now, the one thing that will not be shaken is my faith. I think I just need a couple days to talk about it, feel the feelings, then shake myself off and move on, and get ready for the dance on the 28th. I know I've said it time and again, but my AMOS family means so much to me, I don't know what I'd do without you. Love to you all, Debra