surgery on the 20th have ?

i am having surgery in about 14 days and when i started this journey i was all exited now i feel "i dont know" not that exited now ? i still want the surgery but im not sure why i feel like this ? did any one have the kind of feelings i do ? its like im scared that i wont be able to do this but then i think yes i can i just dont now what to think .. I have made up my mind but i dont know its like im not as impatiant as i was before i got the approval ? any ideas that may help ????????? and on another note i found out why i have to have it by 7/1/05 the doc im going through isnt doing them after 7/1/05 ???????? thanks lisa

All these feeling are normal, you will have sooooooo many different feels as your journey gets underway. If you feeling are really that u desire to not have the surgery, thats something you really need to weighout now, I know for me, it was never a question, I could not WAIT for the day.....I was counting the months.....weeks.......hours and minutes......sure I had feelings like, am I doing the right thing.....ohh man I must be crazyyy....sooooo many different feeling, right down to, what if I die. I really think they are all steps we need to take to get our head and body ready for the day we waited soo long for. I wish you the best, and really, these are feelings that I think each person takes. Relax and take deep breaths and focus on WHY you wanted to do this in the 1st place, if those answers truely seem unclear, rethink them, and if you still have the feelings your having, maybe you dont want this, and thats something you need to descide . I really think its just the days are getting closer and your mind is going through ALOT !! Sorry to hear about your Dr. being done on July1st, I hope he will set you up with a great Dr for your follow-ups as they are very very important to your success after WLS. Lisa.......If you need anything, or just an ear, let me know. Deep Breaths Sister,and remember what brought you to this place right now......regain your focus and tighten up that seatbelt for on hell of a ride !! Keeping you in my thoughts Brenny