Need Help from my AMOS Family

Laurie, Thanks hun for your support...~hugs~ I know many of the risks and I am ready to take them on because I know I need a change!!! I sorry about how I stress out over the little things...Sounds silly but that is what I do... Well I also know that God will not put anything in front of me that I can not get through.....I guess I just have to tell myself that again.... Thanks again hun, Debra P

Debra 1st off, LOVE the new pic......I didnt even know who you were !! Your beautiful !! Now.....on to your question....Deb, I was scared crappless for weeks before my surgery......sooo many things run through your mind, if they dont, maybe this isnt the right thing for you to do. I took, LIKE YOU, sooo long before my approval, and a year of research and a year of waiting......nothing really bothered me....not to the point of making me ill, UNTIL, the weeks before my big day. You realize what your goig to do is going to change your life in ways FOREVER !! and your mind is realizing that along with your body......Stress does funny things to you my dear. I know cutting back on your soda intake may do things to you as well....the caffine withdrawl may have something to do with the bathroom issues........it may also be the stress and nervousness. One thing we can not do is control that kinda stuff in our bodies and mind. We can try to not let things bother us........but......deep inside our minds are ALWAYS thinking.......even if we dont know they are. Deb, normal to have your stress levels higher now that ever before.....because this all just became VERY REAL for you. I wish I had a way to help you cut back on the stress levels....BUT.....again, if you were not feeling all this....maybe its not the right thing for you to do. Your doing a wonderful job........and soon this will be a post you will be giving to someone whos weeks away from something that will change there lives forever too......Keep your chin up, and your smile on your face.....and just look back and remember the road you have taken to get where you are at this moment. Along the road of this thing we call a "journey" there are little pebbles in the road......at times there will be boulders.......kick the small ones and the biggers one...just walk around !! Because when you get to the end of this longgg longgg journey, I just know its going to be a place of beauty AND peaceful........the road even with all the detours and bumps.....will have been a road worth taking !! I dont know if this helped you or not........just know I have you in my mind and prayers........We are all taking that road with you Debra....and to feel the things your feeling RIGHT NOW, are all normal and we in some way, are feeling them WITH YOU. Love To You !! Brenny

Ohhh Deb..I know that feeling!! I was so scared but i knew it was the right thing to do. You will be fine. Dr Garber is a fantastic surgeon and his staff is wonderful you are in great hands!! {{{{{HUGS}}}}}}}

Lisa, Yes I am sure it is still fresh in your mind.... I am even worried about going for the pre-admt testing.... I am such a wimp...I did talk to Ann on the phone and she sounds awesome... Thanks for posting hun......~hugs you~ Debra P

Brenda, Hun that was so nice of you to say....~hugs you~ I thank you for the writing to me, I think I will print this all out and keep it with me so I can read everyones words.... I really do know that I will make it through, I know that I will have to go through some rough times and some awesome times, I just have to get my mind back into a healthy place as well..... I think I worry more about the pain then anything else, needles and such.... I know that sounds silly but....well that is me.... Thank you so much for your post hun and yes you HAVE helped a lot... Debra P

Debra, I also know exactly what you are going through. It is so normal to have these scared feelings. Each and every one of us here on this board felt the same way. You know that you are in great hands with Dr Garber and Donna Falco. You are going to love Anna at Mercy Hospital. All the nurses and techs that I came in contact with at the pre-testing were great. You will see...it will be just fine, just like when you had your endoscopy there. Just keep focusing on the new chapter in your life that is soon to begin. We are all waiting here for you to join us on the losing side. Hang in there! Hugs and kisses Gail

Gail, Thank you so much hun...~Hugs~ I know that Dr Garber is an awesome surgeon and I have met Donna on my last visit, she was great too.... I did get to talk to Anna when I called about my pre-admit testing, she seems really nice also...I am glad for that..... Thanks again hun.... Debra P

Hello and angelette I love saying that! :: to whoever came up with that! I know exactly how you feel... and it's the worst feeling in the world, like Christine said, it's a rollercoaster ride. Now that it's getting nicer outside, you can go enjoy the nice weather and try not to stay at home and think about it... try going out with some friends or pick up a new hobby like crochet(sp?) dont laugh, i know it sounds grandma-ish, not to offend the grandmas! But I heard that it is very calming to crochet and it literally takes alot off your mind. I have been there as alot of us on here, and you are not alone. I am here for you as everyone else is and if you ever need anything, just call.... I will try to give you a call tonight... Chin Up!! :: We all love ya! Gia

Gia, Hello my Angel / Angelette... Yeah that is kind of a cool word huh?.... Yeah I am sure you do hun, it is still fresh in your mind... I just can not wait until this is all over and I can get on with my new life and deal with what that brings my way... Yeah I have to get out and get some more fresh air, funny I was down on LI over the weekend to see Mom but that did not help me, I was just feeling soooo in the truck and I hate that... I am feeling a little better today but now the headache starts again....Now that is from the caffeine that I am not having or maybe sinus. Hun do you really think I have the patience to learn to crochet at this time.... OMG I would really go over the edge.... Thanks for the tip though, maybe getting out and walking or just enjoying the day is a good thing..... Thanks hun.....luv ya... Debra P

Deb, You have always been so supportive in my journey. I wish I had some magic advice. Just spend time looking through all of the clothing catalogs and online shopping venues. Pick out your next wardrobe. Look at the pics of all the beautiful clothes you will be wearing soon. Think of the colors you will want to wear. Also look at pretty bra & panty sets (love to get new undies :>) Think of all the funs things you will want to try once your body is smaller & more comfortable. I have been trying to find someone to teach me to roller skate. I am also thinking of taking belly dancing lessons in the fall LOL Think of all the people who you have supported along their journey. Email them and ask how they are doing. Send letters that are way overdue. Contact some old friends to say hi. Clean closets and start thinking putting your clothing in order by size so as you go down you won't pass by a lot of items from your exsisting wardrobe. Most of all breath deep. Spend some time on YOU! Read a great book or 2. Knot, croche. Take a cyber hug from me whenever you need one. I have an unlimited supply. HUGS Mary