Thanks, Everyone!

Thanks for all the good wishes and prayers that you all have posted to my surgery page! It means so much to me to think that you all care about what I'm going through. 4 days to go! I took this last week off work so I could get some things done around the house, but so far, I haven't done much but mope and cry. I looked at myself in the mirror this morning and saw how large my neck is and I burst into tears. I told the mirror image that I hated her and never wanted to see her again. But then I found that I was crying for her-even though I've hated the way I look and sometimes the way I act, I will miss this old me. She's gone through a lot, she's a very brave woman. So I told her that I loved her and was doing this for her. I took her out and treated her to a manicure and pedicure! It was just the trick. So for tonight, we'll be comfortable in our skin together, just for a while longer. Nuts, eh? Hugs to you all, Becky Jean

No not nuts.....just a little scared sounding?? I was there I know how you feel. I remember looking in the mirror and not liking what I saw. It's normal. Just remember it's the outside you don't like not the inside. I always loved myself just not my apperance. Make sense? Now I look in a mirror and just stare. I can't believe it's me!!! I love myself as much outside now as I always have on the inside. Good for you with the pampering....keep it up!! Karry 311/195/167 goal

Not nuts Becky Jean, it is your way of coping with your feelings. We all have to do that in our own way. You will always be a brave woman. Just because you are having surgery does not change that. You are you because of things you have had to endure throughout you life so far. You will be entering another chapter of your life soon that you will need to be brave for. Take care and have a speedy recovery. Heather P.S. I wish I could handle things a little differently. My surgery is tomorrow and I have done nothing but be extremely nervous.

Becky, I am still 5 weeks way from my surgery but I am having some weird thoughts myself, kind of like my mind is going through all my life getting ready for this BIG change.....I guess, no I know I will mourn food and maybe even the OLD Debra so maybe all of this and what you are talking about is yourself getting ready for what we both are doing for outselves.....hmmmm does that make sense?......or does it sound So many emotions going on right now and I am sure you are going through so many as well, your closer then me......I just wanted to wish you luck hun and keep us posted on how you are doing....... ~hugs you~ Debra P