Am I insane??????

Hello everyone I have been wanting to have WLS for the past 12 years. Now that it looks like its going to actually gong to happen I am so nervous. I have in the past read the memorial page, I (everynight) read the before and after pictures (for a uplifting feeling, thinking That will be me soon) Just recently I have been reading each of the WLS brother and sister thathave passed, I keep thinking that it could be me. I get to the point where I want to Why I think that way I am not sure, I am very health. My only health problem is my weight (5.9 & 289) . Besides my back. Is this normal? Does everyone get nutty before hand? My surgeon is just breaking out on his own, basically no longer assiting, he will be doing the surgery himself and others will assit him. He is the Cheif of Surgery, and #1 in lap surgeries. He wants me to be one of his first 5. I seriously want to get healthy, thin ( i have NEVER been thin), sexy & active. I know deep in my heart this surgery is right for me, but I am driving myself nuts. So do you think I am nutty or just need to relax? Thanks for listening Tammy

Tammy I have to say I have never gone to the memorial page. I just can't bear to read about what has happened to these wonderful people. I am sure they must have had some other complications that had caused them to pass aside from the surgery being done. I hope I am not wrong about that. I too started get get really nervous when my surgery date got so much closer. I feel this is a normal feeling. I know lots of people who have felt the same way as you do, I know I did. You have made a wonderful choice in your life and I am so very happy for you. May you have an uneventful surgery and a speedy recovery!!!!!!! God Bless You!!!!!!! Please keep us posted on how you are doing on your journey! Have a wonderful day!!!!!!! Evelyn 247/134/past goal

HEllo Evelyn Thank you for your reply. I think I have read all the late WLS brother and sisters rpofiles and yes many of them did have other factors not just the surgery. I am going to stay away from that page for now. I dont have a date yet but I know I will really soon, I guess I jumped the gun a bit. A bit of a nervous Nellie.....lol. I just really want this and I really want to be healthy and pain free so I can be the mother I want to be. Thank you again Thin wishes and WLS dreams Tammy

I'm not sure where abouts in the Southern Tier you are from, but there is a support meeting at Wilson Memorial Hospital in Johnson City this Saturday at 2:00 pm. They are very informative, and it's great to listen to other people. Pre-ops and post-ops.

Hello Janet Thank you for your reply. That is very nice of you to tell me about the support group in Johnson City. I am pretty new to the state and I have no clue where that is. Plus my truck enegine went coputs the other day . I will look for a group close to me which I think will be helpful. Thank you again thin wishes and WLS dreams Tammy

Hello Tammy There is a support group that meets at St. James Hospital in Hornell on the third Wed of every month. The time is 7pm. I hope this helps! Carla

HEllo Carla Thank you so much, I have been wanting to go to a Support Group Meeting. I hope to see you there thin wishes and WLS dreams Tammy

Well....i think you need to relax for sure. Does your surgeon have support group meetings????? That was the best think i could have done is this TUESDAY attend the one my surgeon has at the hospitol. I felt so good to hear all the words his patience said about him and the staff at the hospitol. It sure helped to relax me. I guess mabye your surgeon doesnt have that just yet if he is breaking out of a group now. (My surgeon did that but has been doing the surgeries for about a year now out of the group with his own program at a hospitol. I have ups and downs, but i do stay off the memorial pages and read the happy endings cause i know thats what i will be and you to! We will be the SKINNY girls we always dreamed of being! GOOD luck relax! (PS: my cardiologist actually gave me 2 pills to take the day before and day of my surgery to ensure that my nerves dont take my blood pressure to high and they cancel my surgery. They wittnessed me do that for the angiogram test that i get worked up)

Hello Lisa I wanted to say thank you for your reply. I think there is a support group in ROchester which is an hour from me, but I blew the engine in my truck the other day and now I am without a truck I guess i need to stay off the memorial page for a while for my own sanity ......lol. I cant wait to be the new skinny girl in town!!!!!! Thank you again thin wishes and WLS dreams Tammy

Hi Tammy What you are feeling in very normal..... As for the memorial page if you read some have died from complications but most have died from other illnesses and some have died waiting to have surgery......I have read them and we do know these things do happen and it is good to read them cause this is a risk that you must be willing to take...... As for your surgeon and you being his 5th well I don't think they made him cheif of surgery cause he dosen't know what he is doing it is not easy to get that position so he must be good at what he does even if you will be number 5...you must have confidences in your surgeons ability or you would not have chosen him....you must be comfortable with your surgeon cause he will be preforming your surgery.......I had all of that I can tell you I was calm as could be when I went in to surgery I was even smiling..... You made a hard and wise decsion to have wls now you did your research and need to come to terms with your choices....I know you will do well with this wonderful tool.... I wish you the best through out your journey to a healthier and happier lifestyle...I wish you a successful surgery and speedy recovery.... Christine 346/-85