My first Year
Well it has come and past without much fanfare and life is somewhat normal .. as normal as it can be for somone who has had wls.
November 8 2007 I had my surgery, all went well no complications.
I learned how to eat and that exercise was my friend and the weight slipped off faster than I ever imagined. Emotions were a bit high for a while because I had always used my fat to hide in and now its just me all out there for everyone to see, critisize, and gawk at. No cloak to hide behind. no people ignoring me because i was fat . I cant just walk into a croud now and not be noticed. no one ever utters "but you have such a pretty face" when telling me i am attractive. nope its right out there now with no protective layer of fat to bounce off of.. Sometimes I miss it!!
I have made many changes this year not just physically and emotionally but lifestyle changes that were a chance i would have never taken in the past.
I studied hard to pass a test to get my credentials in substance abous counseling. I took the test and passed and am now a credentialed Counselor. I had put this off for almost 10 years working for substandard pay in a job I loved with all my heart. I was happy but broke all the time. I recently applied for a job in my home town and was hired at twice the pay and good benifits. I love the work but miss the security of being a big fish in a little pond. I am now the little fish, learning how to do a new job with many new aspects of the field. It is a little hectic but the people I work with are wonderful and will help me in an instant if I have any questions.
I bought a motorcycle, something I have always wanted, somthing so totally terrifying that i shake everytime i ride from the sheer power i feel. I love the ru**** provides and the sense of freedome it give me. I dress in leather from head to toe and scream down the highway. It gives me that cloak back. no one sees me when i am all in black leather. I become shapeless. You cant tell if I am a guy or a girl behind the helmet. Ok you can tell because of my shape but at 65 mph you become a bit of a blur!! I love the reaction I get when i park my bike and people are looking . I take off the helmet shake out my hair and they look dumbfounded!! I just smile and walk by. Usually if its a guy they say Nice bike or somthing totally stupid like holy **** or one guy said nice bike for a little girl!! Little girl?? where??? Oh yeah Me!! I am a little girl!!
I never realized how small i was. like my weight added to my height or somthing!! I used to feel bigger.. taller.. Now people call me tiny, little, shortie, or ity bity!! SSSOOOOO Weird!!
My mother now worries about me. she says I am scarry Skinny, and says you can see my bones. I laugh and tell her I am supposed to have bones. collar bones rib bones hip bones that when I bend and strech sometimes come into view. I still weigh 146 pounds I am not all bones!! She always asks if I am eating. I always tell her yes. I am now the only slim person in my family besides my sister in law who is so georgous you'd die. lucky girl. she always looks so elegant and beautiful. But no one asks her if she eats!! I have gone to a lot of support meetings but now I work on the nights they are held so I can't attend nymore. I miss the ladied there. I did get a part time job at the YMCA teaching Water aerobics 2 nights a week and i exercize every day. I have gone from a size 30 to a size 4 and I look good if I do say so myself. I have no health problems anymore. no diabetes, no high bloodpressure no knee and back pain, no leg swelling !! I can run!! No Really RUN!! I can tie my shoes without getting out of breath!! I can sit on the flor and not need help getting up!! I can curl up in a soft chair to read a book and bring my knees to my chin like a little kid and be all cozy without my big tummy being in the way. My husband can pick me up and twirl me in circles when he huggs me!! I love that the best!!. I can even weir his jeans and tee shirts if I want to. sometimes I do!! I can shop in any store and find cute clothes that dont have disney characters on them!! I can even shop the childrens section and buy embroydered jeans to match my grand daughters!! we look so cute together in our matching jeans!! I am no longer tired and in pain at the end of the day. and I am sooooo grateful.
So thank you for letting me share..
Thank you for being here to vent to.
Thank you for the encouragement.
Thank you for the advise.
Thank you for making me laugh,
making me cry,
and joining me on my journey.
I look forward to your posts and stories.
Keep on going
Dont give up
Big Hugs to you all!!
Love Sky
November 8 2007 I had my surgery, all went well no complications.
I learned how to eat and that exercise was my friend and the weight slipped off faster than I ever imagined. Emotions were a bit high for a while because I had always used my fat to hide in and now its just me all out there for everyone to see, critisize, and gawk at. No cloak to hide behind. no people ignoring me because i was fat . I cant just walk into a croud now and not be noticed. no one ever utters "but you have such a pretty face" when telling me i am attractive. nope its right out there now with no protective layer of fat to bounce off of.. Sometimes I miss it!!
I have made many changes this year not just physically and emotionally but lifestyle changes that were a chance i would have never taken in the past.
I studied hard to pass a test to get my credentials in substance abous counseling. I took the test and passed and am now a credentialed Counselor. I had put this off for almost 10 years working for substandard pay in a job I loved with all my heart. I was happy but broke all the time. I recently applied for a job in my home town and was hired at twice the pay and good benifits. I love the work but miss the security of being a big fish in a little pond. I am now the little fish, learning how to do a new job with many new aspects of the field. It is a little hectic but the people I work with are wonderful and will help me in an instant if I have any questions.
I bought a motorcycle, something I have always wanted, somthing so totally terrifying that i shake everytime i ride from the sheer power i feel. I love the ru**** provides and the sense of freedome it give me. I dress in leather from head to toe and scream down the highway. It gives me that cloak back. no one sees me when i am all in black leather. I become shapeless. You cant tell if I am a guy or a girl behind the helmet. Ok you can tell because of my shape but at 65 mph you become a bit of a blur!! I love the reaction I get when i park my bike and people are looking . I take off the helmet shake out my hair and they look dumbfounded!! I just smile and walk by. Usually if its a guy they say Nice bike or somthing totally stupid like holy **** or one guy said nice bike for a little girl!! Little girl?? where??? Oh yeah Me!! I am a little girl!!
I never realized how small i was. like my weight added to my height or somthing!! I used to feel bigger.. taller.. Now people call me tiny, little, shortie, or ity bity!! SSSOOOOO Weird!!
My mother now worries about me. she says I am scarry Skinny, and says you can see my bones. I laugh and tell her I am supposed to have bones. collar bones rib bones hip bones that when I bend and strech sometimes come into view. I still weigh 146 pounds I am not all bones!! She always asks if I am eating. I always tell her yes. I am now the only slim person in my family besides my sister in law who is so georgous you'd die. lucky girl. she always looks so elegant and beautiful. But no one asks her if she eats!! I have gone to a lot of support meetings but now I work on the nights they are held so I can't attend nymore. I miss the ladied there. I did get a part time job at the YMCA teaching Water aerobics 2 nights a week and i exercize every day. I have gone from a size 30 to a size 4 and I look good if I do say so myself. I have no health problems anymore. no diabetes, no high bloodpressure no knee and back pain, no leg swelling !! I can run!! No Really RUN!! I can tie my shoes without getting out of breath!! I can sit on the flor and not need help getting up!! I can curl up in a soft chair to read a book and bring my knees to my chin like a little kid and be all cozy without my big tummy being in the way. My husband can pick me up and twirl me in circles when he huggs me!! I love that the best!!. I can even weir his jeans and tee shirts if I want to. sometimes I do!! I can shop in any store and find cute clothes that dont have disney characters on them!! I can even shop the childrens section and buy embroydered jeans to match my grand daughters!! we look so cute together in our matching jeans!! I am no longer tired and in pain at the end of the day. and I am sooooo grateful.
So thank you for letting me share..
Thank you for being here to vent to.
Thank you for the encouragement.
Thank you for the advise.
Thank you for making me laugh,
making me cry,
and joining me on my journey.
I look forward to your posts and stories.
Keep on going
Dont give up
Big Hugs to you all!!
Love Sky
congrats on being 1 year post op!
What a beautiful post ... continue to enjoy your journey.
hugs,
Britt
What a beautiful post ... continue to enjoy your journey.
hugs,
Britt
Nothing - tastes as good as it feels -to be at my ideal weight :)
Lap RNY 11-6-06 at goal 10-6-07 - Attacking my regain 2013
Mommy to 3 princesses ~ Wife to Paul
I'm a "before and after" in OH magazine (January / February 2008)
I know exactly what you mean. Today is my 1 year surgiversary. I was one of the lucky ones with no complications either. I did find out today that I have to go see a surgeon about having gallstones. Not too fond of the idea of surgery but if necessary so be it. I am down 110 pounds and a size 4-6, small shirts. I started at a 20 and XXL shirts. I know what you mean about people asking if you feel ok and are eating. I get that all the time but people who didnt know me when I was big dont even think twice about me being thin.
Keep up the good work. It is so nice to hear compliments though isnt it.
Christine
Keep up the good work. It is so nice to hear compliments though isnt it.
Christine
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on 11/20/08 9:10 pm - MT
on 11/20/08 9:10 pm - MT
awesome post hun and thanks for sharing with us! Congrats on your 1 year mark!! 
Sounds like you made so many great changes and keep us the awesome work!
~hugs~
Sounds like you made so many great changes and keep us the awesome work! ~hugs~
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