oh my gosh i am suddenly horrified

ok so i have been ok up until now very confident in my decission and suddenly i am terrified. will my life ever be normal again? will this really work for me and make me the healthy mom i so want to be???? i dont understand why the doubts i have been working toward this for a year. i have been so sure and now im just so scared. Scared about how i will feel scared i will be one of these people that has nothing but complications. HELP PLEASE.

Take a deep breath!!! It's going to be ok!!! What you are feeling is perfectly normal - everyone goes through it!! This is a major lifestyle change & it shouldn't be taken lightly!! I can honestly say that compared to the number of people who have had the surgery the number to folks with complications is minimal!! I think I can count on one hand the number of people that I normally correspond with that have had problems & some of those were kinda self-induced!!! You are in great hands & will do just fine!!

Think about all of the wonderful things you will be able to do with your kids that you can't do now!! My 4 yr old niece loves the fact that can I go outside & do more than blow bubbles (which BTW was tough with my asthma pre-op)!! Now we play bolley-ball (yeah that's what she calls it) & run around & even jump rope!! It thrills me to no end that I can do these now!!

I had a family reunion this past weekend & haven't seen many of those folks since the last one in June 2007 & can I tell you how FAB-U-LOUS it was to see & hear their reactions!!! OMG!! Yes it was a little vain of me to enjoy it so much but dammit, I worked hard to get here!!! My Aunt told me to enjoy every minute of it!! Everyone was so proud of me for taking such a huge step in saving my life before it was too late!!!

So just remind yourself to breath, think about next summer with your kids & you will be great!!!!
Cece

Thank you so much! Its so funny i feel like i am so close to things i have dreamed about for so long and yet for some reason scared to accept it. My husband and boys have been so great. Last night when my 12 year old was going to bed he kissed me and said "ya know this is the your last not skinny Monday" he is sweet but WOW can we say reality. I cried for an hour. (of course i explained to him that i will not be leaving the OR thin). I organized a football game for my all the pop warner senior boys against the parents and coaches and i wont be able top play it will be a week after my surgery but ya know I WILL PLAY NEXT YEAR. those are the things I'm holding on to.
You enjoy the WOW comments god knows you deserve them. I most certainly would not call you vain i would call you ONE HOT MAMA!!!!!!!!  
I am hoping the complications are kept to a minimum, i keep telling my self that this site is nation wide and with all the surgeries done every day the complications are minimal. However today i will be going to Ellis to visit my friend who is having her surgery in less than an hour. If there is a god she will be doing well and ill be able to breath.
Thank you for your sweet words and i apologize for all my rants the next few days

Sounds like you've got the right support at home!! That makes a world of difference!!! Your son sounds like an amazing little man!!!! You should be proud!!! Keep that football game in mind... it's an awesome goal!!!

Is it Barbara (Tyrah?) you're visiting today? I think that's who I pm with all the time  & her surgery is today! (Am I mixing a few people up? I'll blame it on old age!!) If it is please give her my love & tell her I am thinking about her!!! She's got Dr Clarke, right? She is in awesome hands!!! Yeah, I am partial to "Dr Blue Eyes" (my cousin calls him that - she saw him when she came to pick me up from the hospital.) Oh & his anesthesiologist is kinda cute too!! My brother thought the OR nurse was cute also - wish I could remember their names... again, blaming it on old age!!!

I am learning to take the compliments in stride - it's a tough nut to crack but I am getting there!!! I am getting used to it!!

Rant all you want especially if it helps you get through these last few days!!! I'll be here to remind you to breath!!!

Hi yes it is barb. i talked to her husband and she went in to the OR in great spirits. ill let you know

I agree totally with Cece...you are going to have lots of thoughts before this surgery...it is completely normal.  I was very lucky...I had no complications.  Just follow the rules and be dedicated...we are here for you!

Rosemary

I went through this too. I go in tomorrow. Today I keep crying for no reason (God help me on the other side when the hormone surges begin). I'm nervous, excited, scared, hopeful. It's a crazy mix of emotions, but I understand its normal. Good luck on Friday!
~Heather

BEST OF LUCK TO YOU TOO!!!!! SEE YOU ON THE OTHER SIDE

Heather, Just wanted to wish you good luck tomorrow!!

Pam C.

Heather - Let all of the emotions out - you'll feel better but don't forget to breath!!! About 3 weeks post-op for me was crying time!! HOLY COW!! I was at work just plugging along & I could've cried at the drop of the hat!!! Welcome to the emotional roller-coaster!! It does get better!!

Good luck tomorrow!!!!
Cece