I JUST DON'T CARE ANYMORE!!!!

I am NEVER wearing these clothes again! That is what I said to my wife yesterday as we were going through our dressers. I held up a pair of pants - Size 64w 30L. I sat down and just looked at those pants. Remembering what life was like 5 months ago. The struggles of trying to lose the 10%....the embarrassment of kids looking at me and asking thier parents why I was so fat. The insecurities of whether or not my wife would stay with me...even though I was so badly limited by my weight. Sitting there looking at those pants, I remembered some...ALOT of the good things that I went through. But, it was a new chapter in my life. It is time to say goodbye to those pants. More than 100 lbs have come between us. I stood up again, not needing 3 tries to get up...I walked to the dresser and continued my sorting. Shirts that were too tight to wear are now too big to dorn. I continued sorting. Remembering the struggles to financially afford getting these clothes that I was now throwing away. I thought, should I save a pair for memory sake? No. I have Pictures for that. I came accross a pair of jeans....size 56. I thought to myself...there is NO way in God's green earth that I am down to this size yet! I didn't want to chance embarrasment. I did not want to even feel a bit of discouragement. So, I folded them and put them back in the drawer..."someday". my wife urged me to try. I did not want to. I haven't been as dedicated to my eating habits as I should...and I know that I need to get back to it....Tomorrow....

So, today, I am getting dressed...and I pulled out a pair of jeans. Put them on...and they were a little tighter than what I remembered they were. GREAT! Now I am paying for my bad eating habits. Getting mad at myself, i slowly pulled them off and just out of tradition...I looked at the label to see what size I cannot wear....they were the 56's!. I pulled them back on with pride! I haven't been down to this size since before I got married 6 years ago! I am so happy! I could just SCREAM! But, why waist (hehe) my breath? I think I will just go to the gym instead!

Good for you!!  Gotta love "WOW' moments like that, it's just one of the many blessings of this journey.  Keep up the fantastic job you're doing!!

Flo

Tim --
That's wonderful ... you had gone through so much to get here. You've been so inspiring and continue to be.
All the best to you --
Maria

Congrats... :) Hugs,

Congratulations on a fabulous WOW moment!

Rosemary

Hey Tim, it's been a long time since I've been on the message board.  I'm glad to hear you've been doing so well--you need to get a new picture!  I want to share a similar story.  The other day I went in to buy some sweats to wear for walking.  I automatically went to the plus sizes and began sorting through the sizes.  It took me a minute to realize that I belonged in the other section.  But when I went there I felt like a fraud and kept looking around to see if anyone noticed.  The good news is I'm starting to get used to my new size even if the 'new size' keeps changing.  The scariest time was when I had to order a bridesmaid dress for a wedding I'll be in at the end of the month.  I ordered a size smaller than I was in at the time and that I haven't been down to for at least 15 years.  I went to try on the dress the other day and IT FIT!! 
~Carol

Awesome!!

I was back at the Y for the first time in 4 something months....I walked a mile in about 20 minutes....and then went to the sauna....I sweated like I was supposed to. during the whole time at the gym, people came up and welcomed me a visitor to the Y. I told them I remembered them...but I was not a visitor. When I reminded them who I was......they all responded the same way "NO WAY!"

It was FUN!

That's great!  I decided to quit the Y because of the distance and the gas (takes me over 1/2 hour to get there).  I now have a walking group in town and am doing aquaaerobics.  Good luck!

First of all congrats on your "Wow" moment - You've come a long way baby! I am sure you will have many more moments and you be sure to celebrate each one! This journey is one of courage and commitment and not the walk in the park (no pun intended here) that most people mistakenly think it is.  I know what yu mean about trying to get yourself up after 2-3 times-I still do this but I have alot to lose yet but improving steadily every day! Tim - thanks for sharing your moments - I love your sense of humor and your zest for life ! Keep up the great work ! Mary (Molly)