2 Month Freak-Out - x-post

Hi -

I have no idea why it happened, but I had a bit of a freak-out tonight.  I was watching Law and Order and all of the sudden I started to think about my surgical date.  Usually when I think of the my surgery, I get excited and dream about the amazing tool that my RNY will give me as I try to achieve optimal, life long, weight loss and management.  This was sooooo not the case tonight.  Tonight I started to think about how my insides will never be the same and how my toying with nature might make for a life time of issues in an otherwise heathly (ok fat, but pretty healthy) 35-year-old body.

Then I got crazy.  I started to think about my parents and my brother, and how it would just destroy them if something happened to me on the table.  I started to think about saying goodbye to my mom and dad as they wheeled me into surgery (ok, now I am crying again).  I started to imagine extremes.

I know that I am not being rational.  Maybe I am hormonal or something.  I don't know.  But I can't sleep, I have a brutal, post-cry headache, and I am still in my irrational place. 

Is it normal to be doubtful, worried, and such as the surgery gets closer?  Since I made the decision to have the surgery I have not had such an episode... I hope it doesn't last long.

Help...

Thanks
Jenn

Hi Jenn,I too had Dr.Graber.It's normal to be all you stated.I had my doubts as they wheeled me down the hall on the bed.All I can say is that 1. Dr. Graber and his staff are great .2.It one of the best things I've done for myself and my family EVER.Just do as recommended by the Dr. and all will be fine.Good luck,Bob

Thank you Bob!  I really appreciate your post.  I do trust Dr. Graber - he is so great! 

Jenn

Jenn,

Your feelings are completely normal.  I was very stressed before my surgery.  I actually thought about bolting from the pre-op room.  But, I am so glad I toughed it out.  It is the best decision I've made in my life.  I am at goal as of this week and life is soooo good.  Keep the faith and keep your eye on the prize. 

Rosemary

Thanks so much Rosemary!

It is good to know that so many people feel the same way!

Have a great night!

Jenn

Jenn feelings you have are Normal...only thing i was upset about when they wheeled me in I didnt get to kiss my youngest daughter...I interviewed 4 surgeons...and trust me your in Good hands! I still dont even feel like I ever had surgery....I was more scared about the pain...and trust me it wasnt even bad labor was worse:) Dr Garber and Fitzer are the best in the area!

You've lost 45 lbs since your RNY?  You are a superstar!  Congrats! 

Thank you so much for your words of encouragment.  I do trust Dr. Graber and got really good vibes from him when I met him. 

Have a great night!

Jenn