Hi, my name is Cece & I am a carbaholic!!!

Thanks Kristy!! God knows I am trying my hardest to make this work to it's full potential!!! It's tough some days but I'll get there!!!

Cece

CECE:
HEllo
I commend you on the brave warrior that you are posting your challenge today!
I believe in your success, now all that is needed is for you to beleive!

Many find therapy helpful, or 12 step groups such as CODA or OA.. just a thought!

SOme helpful words....
The bottom line is this: YOU/WE HAVE TO HAVE THE THOUGHT BEFORE YOU/WE CAN CREATE THE ACTION.

When all is said and done, change begins with the thoughts you/we think. So, what do you/we think?


It only takes 100 calories a day to gain 10# in a year, or visaversa 100# calories less a day and we could lose 10# in a year!

CHANGE IS INEVITABLE STRUGGLE IS OPTIONAL!

AUTOBIOGRAPHY IN 5 SHORT CHAPTERS
By Portia Nelson
I
I walk down the street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I fall in.
I am lost...I am helpless.
It isn't my fault.
It takes me forever to find a way out.

II
I walk down the same street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I pretend I don't see it.
I fall in again.
I can't believe I am in the same place.
But, it isn't my fault.
It still takes a long time to get out.

III
I walk down the same street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I see it there.
I still fall in...it's a habit.
My eyes are open.
I know where I am.
It is my fault.
I get out immediately.

IV

I walk down the same street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I walk around it.

V
I walk down another street.



Cece you may have to fall inthe hole a few times before you/we find a different street. I found it, but i'll be I still like to go down the old streeet and fall in the same hole even at 6 yrs postop! THere is no perfection only progress! HUGS

Thanks Jamie!! God knows I have the scrapes on my knees to prove I've fallen more than few times!!! I am not looking for perfection I just don't want to fail!!! I am trying to fix what can be fixed as the issues come up.

I am talking to a therapist every once in a while. It helps!! The last month or so I have been in a ridiculous stall so I had to sit back & be honest & see if there was anything I was doing that was causing it or could help break it & the carbs & lack of exercise was what I came up with. So now I have taken that scary 1st step in admitting it to someone other than myself... sort of a way to be held accountable for my actions I guess!!! So far, so good!! Yes I know it's only been a few hours but it's the first steps that are the hardest!!!

Thank you for all of you words of wisdom!! It helps to hear from the vets so I realize that I am not losing my mind or the only one dealing with these issues!!! I know I'm not - I read about everyone's struggles all of the time but some days it's hard to get that through my thick skull!!!!

I am off to the hematologist for what should be my last appt with him today & then to the gym (part 2 of my new habits!!)!

Cece

Cece
U r where I was at 7 month postop. Hunger rtn wt loss zippo and scared I guess as I was and could eat much more quantity/variety of food. -i upped exercise cut carbs by embracing the so beach lifestyle NOT diet rid self of white bread milk and taters also crackers (aka CRACK to me lol) went to protein shakes one in am one as eve treat and stopped eating past 7-x pm as night time can trigger a carb binge!!!

U can do it U Will DO it! Jamie

The best things in life are starchy.

 

 

I have come to the conclusion that it isn't that I can't eat protein...I just don't know how to cook.

 

 

Actually Tim, the best things in life for me are & were CHOCOLATE!!!   So if I can control that then why not these evil carbs??? That is the million dollar question!!!

Cece

Hi Cece!
First I want to congratulate for coming so far! You have done an amazing job.
I totally understand what you are going through.  I felt that this was a huge commitment and immense change to my body and I didn't want to take it lightly.
These past few months have been really hard for me, I have gained about 10 lbs and started snacking.  The problem for me is that I don't want to do it, but I feel that compulsion.
So I have started going to OA.  I found some meetings in the city and while it hasn't totally kicked my carb monster in the keester, it has really helped me find some peace and serenity and more importantly, hope.  I also found a recovery site, where they have a downloadable journal with questions that are based on the 12 step programs for those who get all kinds of introspective like me.
Good luck and best wishes that the going gets easier!
Sue

Sue,
Thank you so much!! I know what I've done is nothing to sneeze at but to think I have about 80-100lbs yet to go & it has slowed down already bummed me out a bit!!!

It sounds like you found a good source of help with OA. I am going to try to get through the next 2 weeks & see where that puts me!! I know there are people & places I can see that can help me... one step at a time!!

Keep up the awesome work!! You have been such an inspiration to me!!!
Thank you!!
Cece

Ps. Food journals always help me I am using one now

Think about journaling around the need 4 popcorn at work

I'd guess it is a coping tool 4 some emotion just begin as a slueth to uncover

Also post food daily here or to an email bud can help millions*

I do use dailyplate.com to keep track of what I eat & I find when I don't do it daily I really stray!! That's the habit I need to get back into!! I don't know if there's a place for journaling moods, emotions etc but I am going to keep a little notebook with me & write down what triggers me & see if I can figure it out!!!!