Hi, my name is Cece & I am a carbaholic!!!

Ok Jamie supplied me with a ton of good info (it's in detroitredwing's ketosis post) & I have decided to do what she suggested!! Here goes...

I have been doing really well up until recently!! I made tons of excuses why the weightloss has slowed down so early (I've been told I should get a few more months of the honeymoon period) but after a major realization the truth is carbs have snuck their evil selves back into my life more than they should!! I developed a few habits that I need to stop - one is popcorn daily at work! I realized I don't need it but for some reason I want it & have to have it!! Time to stop that one in it's tracks!!! There are other things like potatoes, corn, bread & oatmeal! I find that when I eat them I want more... evil SOBs!!!

So I have decided to try the kick-start program also found in that post I mentioned above & ween myself off of the carbs!!! Truth be told I know I can do it - I've done it before!! I am dealing with so many emotions right now & they have always been my comfort foods in the past - time to change that!!

I am so scared of failing &/or sabatoging myself!! I don't want that to happen!! I didn't rearrange my guts to go back to where I began!!! When I look in the mirror I don't even recognize the person I see!! I don't think I have changed so much on the inside but the outside blows me away!! I cannot even begin to imagine what I am going to look like when I reach goal!!! That scares me a little!!! ...ok, a lot!!!

I did start going to a gym with a good friend of mine & she is so excited to be my support person!! I went with her Sunday morning & it felt awesome!! I feel muscles that I forgot I had!! I got more from 1.5 hrs at planet fitness than I did from 4 months at curves!!! I even walk every day at lunch instead of sitting in the lunchroom watching jeopardy with the group!!! I have my eye on the plastics so I know I need to get as toned as possible!!!

So, any words of wisdom... motivational sayings that helped you guys... whatever you've got I will take!! I am going to plaster them all over to help keep me on track!!!

Thanks guys!!!!
Cece

Aww Cece, i know how u feel, carbs was my bff! i even want it now. but i know that if i start then im dead, i can never go back. im soooooooooooo dying for a pepsi, omg breadddddd chinese food, etc, but i know i will just kill myself if it happens. i wont stop, i dont have the strength. so,,,,, purge urself sister and try to kick the habbit. we are all with u!

Thanks!!! It is definitely a daily struggle with one thing or another!! I am so glad I never thought this was going to be an easy way out cus I would be severely disappointed!!!

Ya know - I really thought when I started this that Chinese food cravings would kill me but to tell you the truth I have no desire for it at all!!! Funny how our tastes change!!!

Hang in there!!
Cece

Hi Cece,
I think your struggles with carbs are universal. Right as my weight loss started to slow down, I went on the South Beach Diet and dropped 10 pounds in one week! But I wasn't able to sustain it. I reached what my doc said would be my goal weight, which was actually 10-20 lbs heavier than I had wanted. I have tried, time and again to get the weight lower. I am also totally addicted to carbs, but I find if I completely eliminate them from my diet, I rebound and binge on them later on. I have gotten to a place where I am trying to allow myself one really big hit a day...let's say pasta for dinner, but high protein pasta....or on occasion, a scone on a Sunday morning. The rest of the day, I try to avoid carbs. It's a real challenge. Some days I succeed and others not. I am maintaining my weight now, and I guess that's the whole idea.

Hopefully, I will keep learning about moderation. I think it's key to being a healthy wholesome person.

Hugs,
Amy

Thanks Amy!! I know what you mean about totally cutting them out. I don't want to do that in the long run because I will do the same as you - I have learned that the hard way over the years! I do want to learn how to control them & not have them control me!! It just sucks cus I am getting in everything else - protein, water & now exercise - like I should but this one hurdle is getting the best of me!!! It's good to know I am not the only one struggling! I thought that by now it would be easier... who the hell was I kidding? 

Cece

I hear you girl. The thing I have to keep reminding myself is that after the initial huge weight loss, the RNY is merely a tool...the rest is the same from here on in, I am a woman who will always be struggling with obesity, even if I'm not obese.

xox
Amy

I imagne that I will be too!! Who would I be kidding if I tried to say that I wouldn't?!!! I guess the easiest thing is going to be to deal with the demons as they come up & not beat myself up over them!!! (oh, that's easier said than done!!  )

Cece

Cece,

YOU GO GIRL....Don't let those carbs run your life!  I find myself yearning for carbs too...but, I am lucky, they really don't "agree" with me.  I get overly full and uncomfortable...I just have to listen to my body!  We will overcome!

Rosemary

Thanks Rosemary!!!! I wish they didn't agree with me!! Everything seems to so far!!! I guess that's both a blessing & a curse!!!

I know I can overcome this!! It will take time!! Hey, I got this far & who would've thought I could've done that?!!!  My struggles have even inspired some of my family & friends to get healthy too!! I need to keep those positive thoughts in my head!!!
I CAN DO THIS!!!!

Cece

You can do it!!!  You are a true inspiration!!!