help

hi my name is rachel i am 23 im going to die if i dont get elp fast im in the worst codition and i cant dig mself out of my depression to make the right choices and changes i dont know if i want surgery or not but i feel like it might be the only way and things are bad and i dont have the right support in my life r someone to hold my hand through the fear and anxiety
im so confused and in physical and mental pain. i just want a oife for myslef i have no money coming in and i have to be out of school due to medixal issues and the sleep apnea
im wasting my most precisious years and i need more guidance and understanding of whats out there and what to take advantage of. i have bben heavy my wholie life dont know anything different but i want to. i have serious eye problems to and can get surgery for that yet cause at my weight risk for anything and everything. im extremly scared and feeel so so so alone.
[email protected] is my email
i just dont know...

Dear Rachel.....I just want to say I hear your pain and I am sorry for your troubles......I do not have any suggestions for you just to say.....I sent a prayer off to the angels to lead you in the right directions.....Hugs and kisses....Susan

Rachel,  we can listen all you want here, but sometimes it doesn't hurt to seek more help for yourself. Maybe you need to talk w/ a professional, a counselor of sorts.  I've been where you are and it is not a nice place. Check your local phone book for a crisis hotline number & use it. ~Ape