My LAST busy day until surgery

Tuesday marked the 4th funeral in 8 days that I officiated. This marked the end of a 2 week head spinning, frustrating, heart-breaking "era". I had 3 Doctors appointments scheduled for Tuesday as well....and I was able to fit in a 10 AM funeral for a man who attended the church. Everything came out fine....except that I am still 10 lbs over what I was 2 weeks ago. Since Randall's coffee talk thread today deals with speaking how you feel....I will tell what I am feeling. Looking back at this past 2-3 weeks of pure STRESS, EMOTION-Filled, busy, hectic cir****tances....I did not cheat on my diet except by eating schedule, not menu. Although I did not get to the gym as desired....I still got exercise in. I have nothing to be ashamed of. I know that the weight I gained back was fluid....and there is nothing I can do about the fluid when I am not able to keep my legs up....especially being BOMBARDED with job related stuff. It is like overtime for shift workers..sometimes, it is just part of our modern day life. All day yesterday I was beating myself up for still weighing over the weight that I was approved of. I will tell you this, I was MAD at myself. But then i realized, ya know, there is nothing I did that I would not do. I did everything I was able to do given what I had to work with. If it is not good enough for Dr. Singh, and he rejects my date on the 30th...so be it. Everyone that I saw yesterday told me that If he was going to cancel after all the pre-op testing etc for fluid...then it would be unjust. I say, regardless of whether he is just or unjust, I did my best...and if my best is NOT good enough....then OBVIOUSLY I need assistance. My last appointment with Dr. Singh for pre-op is tomorrow. I still plan on going to the gym and I still plan on sticking to my diet. I don't want "the last supper" anymore. I don't want to slack off...I want to go walk. I miss walking at the Y. I played some basketball this past weekend...but it is not the same as walking. Walking is my time in prayer, focus, positive thinking and sweat. These past 2 weeks I have not been able to get out but twice. Whether I have the operation or not, I feel GREAT about my success in losing weight. If all I ever lose is 45-55 lbs in this process....then I am pleased with myself...because I changed my life. I WOULD like to continue, but at this point...it is just gravy. Am I nervous about tomorrow? Yes. Do I have doubts and fears that he is going to cancel my appointment? Yep. Would I be saddened if he DOES cancel my operation? Yes. Maybe i should poll the audience.... Will Dr. Singh postpone my operation on Thurs?

Tim... Huge cyber hugs... I'm not Dr. Singh nor do I know what warrants him cancelling a surgery.. But what I can say is that it thrills me to hear your positive attitude. What will be will be and if it is cancelled may be there's a bigger reason why.. You know all of those reasons why things happen that we never really know the answer for.. But I'm a firm believer of what's meant to be will be... and babe, if the 30th is the perfect day for you.. then it will be...  Hang tight and stay focused on your goal..

Hi Tim, I don't know Dr. Singh's protocol, but my vote is that no, he will not postpone.

After all, if we could lose and sustain that loss on our own, why would we need WLS?  Also, he has to understand your exercise challenges. I think with everything you've gone through, you have a new level of acceptance in your voice (writing).  But to be on the safe side, let's not test it just yet, O.K? 

Please let us know. hugs,

Sounds like you have made peace with what is. now it is an opportunity to let go and let god. Acceptance and letting go. Lessons I get to practice over and over!
Be well. Keeping you in my thoughts tomorrow!
How we deal is in our control, for me if I keep cliniging onto my fear then I give away my personal power..When I accept and let go and trust what is meant to be I am always better of!

I went to the gym yesterday and enjoyed sweating. Then...I went to a church member's house...and played basketball for 2 hours. So I sweat some more. Came home...and did some odd job stuff...and sweat some more.... So even if I don't get cleared today....I still had a good time sweating.

Tim, Congrats for getting as far as you have gotten with all the stresses in your life. Either way you are not where you were. Good luck with your appt and please let us know the outcome.

Hey Tim!  Congratulations on your surgery date of the 30th!  Coming up sooooo fast.  Too many distractions to even notice sometimes.  HE WILL NOT CANCEL YOUR SURGERY.  You have jumped all the hurdles, worked hard and been approved for his skilled services to take care of your medical needs and at this point 10 lbs would be a waste of hundreds if not thousands of dollars already.  He has a lot invested in you too at this  point.  I did not have lap-band, rather roux n y by Dr. Carl Rosati at AMC 11/02.  Started at 320+ and currently still losing steadily but at 195lbs.  No skinny minny by any means but I am 44 y/o with MS and other complications which keep me from doing serious exercise.   Praise Jesus - seriously  - that you have definitely done your homework and then some.  You are already on your way and Dr. Singh wants what is best for you, Tim.  Sure, he makes ka-ching lol but in the end it is  his reputation, schedule, and conscience that drives him to make sound medical and business decisions like this.    Unfortunately, society has determined that fat is a stigma to the eye.  Maybe, for some.  But the facts are that when your health begins to deteriorate, for a lot of us this is a LIFE SAVING SURGERY.  Don't be down.  Optimism brings you through the challenges we face everyday.  The hope and faith that tomorrow the sun will shine on our faces again. So to sum  up my blabbering, the demand for the surgery is HIGH, the number of surgeons is growing but not SUFFICIENT TO MEET DEMAND,  therefore, surgeons are very PICKY AND SET HIGH STANDARDS FOR SUCCESS OF THEIR POTENTIAL PATIENTS.  Their reputations - like I said, are all they have for continued success in their profession. I am an angel on your shoulder, dude, and know you will be great.  I am cheering for you really loud and giving you cyber hugs (I like that--stole it from one of your other writers - thanx!).  I'll check back. e-mail me if you would like. - Jodi

Tim.. Please let us know how you make out..

Starting weight: 541 My current weight: 497 My 10% weight : 485

Tim did you have your appt yet????