Today is going to be disappointing.....

I am not going at this with a losing attitude, it is just the facts of life. Last night, went to the scales at GF and I weighed in. No change. Diet, Exercise, and even affirmations could not change the verdict that was manifested through the digital screen....495.5. I have been working out (cardio) and have been abstaining from protien shakes as dictated by the NUT. Sadly enough, I have even taken water pills, which have helped reduce some of the water. my only hope is that the scale at GF is off and that it is higher than usual...which sometimes is the case. Scale obsession? Yes. I suppose I and the doctors at this point is/are obsessed. With 10 more pounds to go, and an overwhelming feeling of discouragement...I called the Insurance company today to ask about switching programs to Ellis. The insurance dude said that if I keep a diary...detailed....and a journal of exercise (or letters from the YMCA of my persistent work-out) and bring it to Dr. Singh (like someone at the support group said) that the insurance comp. will more than likely approve of it within 72 hours. This is by no means an easy way out. But, I will continue to do my physical exercise (cardio) and diet...because I LOVE the new me....even without the stupid scale's opinion. I see the dietician today...and I see Dr. Singh on the 25th. until then...I have to get to journaling atleast a good month..... I have records...but not daily..... STUPID STUPID STUPID! Why didn't I do that? Oh yeah...because I am lazy

Dear Tim, YOU ARE NOT STUPID AND YOU ARE NOT LAZY!   Sounds like you're being pro-active, and that's a good thing, right? hugs,

I don't think I am stupid...I was calling the scale stupid....I am SMART!!! And I am not really that lazy...I am just motivationally challenged

ME TOO!!!!!!!!!!     

Hey Tim, How did it go with the nutritionist?  It was nice meeting you the other day at the meeting...well we didnt really"meet... I get "shy" around so many people I dont know, but I am the one that was there with my mother and aunt!  Good luck!

OHHHH....So THAT is who you are....hmmm I prefer carrie to Lindstrom....she is more down to earth. Maybe a lighter case load? Maybe it is cause she doesn't teach at the college? She politely chewed me out....and yet encouraged me. She asked me not to go on the shakes, and just encouraged me to lose what I can. she said she was going to email Dr.Singh and intervene for me...but told me to get my ducks in a row. my BP is excellent....even though I can't shed this annoying cough....3 weeks now....still breathless. God is in control and I need to stop whining so much.