I HATE being fat

Ok, I know the title is how everyone else felt to before they had surgery. I just am finally getting it. I am tired of being tired and fat. I am tired of eating so I can feel full. Want to know what I ate yesterday A bowl of ceral, 4 peanut butter sandwiches, a pizza before dinner, baked ziti, pizza when I came home ( pizza is the cheap cardboard pizza**** cream and chips today so far, I have had a bag of combo's 2 hots, cereal and I am starving right now. It is only 12:30. HELP!  I dont know if my insurence wil cover the surgery and I havent even talked with a doctor either. I know I need to make an appointment and plan on doing that this afternoon. I have tried diet after diet after diet and failed. I walk with my children and when I try to get off my butt to do any housework now that I want to clean LOL I have backpain. this just sucks I used to say, and I love my SIL and she is what brought me here to this forum. I used to say, well I am not as big as Terri so I cant be that bad, NOW TERRI is smaller then I am!!!!!!!! WAY TO GO TERII!!!! I am so proud of her!

Ginger, I really do feel your pain and frustration coming through in your post.   Please follow through with the appt and see if you can start the process.  If nothing else, it makes you feel that you are doing something positive for your situtation and that's so important. Please continue to post when you feel this way and vent as needed.  We've all been there or are there and understand where you are coming from. Let us know what happens this afternoon when you call. Take care, Sue

Ginger, My heart goes out to you.   We have all been where you are.  We have all felt sick and tired and at a crossroads place.  Its up to you to decide if you've had enough.  If your ready to do this.  You've made a huge step by posting here and being real with us all.  Very real I would say and thank you for that.  Now its about taking the next step and knowing it is the right thing for you.  I have always been the "friend" / person that was larger than anyone I knew.  Most of my life that didn't matter to me... I lived large and I loved it!!! .  But I came to the point that my body didn't love me anymore LOL it "quit"  I had to face where I was and what it would take.  I was 46yrs old when I finally just "knew" this was the way for me to go and I am VERY happy that I did it.  Do I love this every min. of the day? NOPE.. but I do love that I am changing and learning to re-think who I am and what I want and what I'm doing and where I'm going!  its GREAT!  so whether its Lap Banding or Gastric Bypass or some other commitment to lose I just want  to encourage you to JUST DO IT!  its not gonna change till you do it.  We're here to encourage you and be part of your journey!  

You're ready to make that call, Ginger!  We've all been there or as pre-oppers, we're there.  You have an incredible source of support here with your OH family.  Call to your doc and get an appointment.  That's the foundation for this process.  We're here for you! 

Muah xo

Hello Ginger, I fully understand. I have deemed myself the human vacuum. But I finally saw the light at the end of the tunnel and began to research and made several phone calls. My surgery is Tuesday and I never thought I would get to this point, but here I am. The chains of bondage begin to fall off when you first pick up the phone. It is a start and know that we are here cheering you on.

Keep us posted. God bless.

Well then as the SIL that you love...............MAKE THAT CALL TO THE DOCTOR.  I know exactly how you feel as I have been there also.  The best thing that I did for myself is to have the surgery.  Don't wait until you are as old as I am to start living.

I have not made that call yet, I do not know why this is frightening me.

Ginger (((HUGS))) you are at a great place wanting to change,  MAKW IT HAPPEN!  You can do it and you will be so proud of yourself sweets!   When you are going for food...really think about some choices and make a small change weekly.  You can do it! You are so worth it!!