Hugs Needed...Blues Have Set In.

As some of you know I had my surgery on March 19th. I never expected to have as easy a time with it as I have had. I have been on the boards still reading the posts and trying to offer some hugs here and there, but not really giving an update on myself. That is because I don't think that this is going to work for me. Yesterday was 3 weeks out and I lost about 12 lbs. From what we all learned here is that everyone loses at a different speed and I can accept that. I just can't imagine it coming off me though I just can not make myself get on a scale...I can't. In two weeks I have a Drs. appt and will weigh there. I introduced a scrambled egg into my diet yesterday and had it over a 30 min. period with no liquids drunken before and after. It went down with no problem but I am very confused about the meaning of "full". I did get a tightness in my chest, almost as if something was caught there. So, it tasted great in my mouth but the whole eating experience is gone. I read today that eggs are difficult for a lot of people so today I had L/F ricotta cheese and applesauce. The bottom line is that I think that I was in a kind of eurphoric stage when I came home. I was glad that all went well, glad that I was alive and glad that I was pain free and everything was now behind me. Even my wounds have healed incredibly well. I have a lot to be thankful for...I know this. It's funny because I thought that I was soooooo prepared for the surgery. I lived on this board, went to way more than the required amt. of education groups and support groups and browsed through many books about this surgery. I read time and time again how a good 80% of the WLS pts. went through the "what did I do to myself?" syndrome. I even read these to my husband (He's such a good man) and told him to remind me of this and he is doing that now. I think maybe I am going through this. What did I do? Imagine if this doesn't work? I'm kind of discouraged and maybe it is subconsiously mourning food. By nature, I am not a negative person so I don't know where this is coming from. Please just look over what I did yesterday and see if this was OK. NO PROBLEMS WITH WATER AT ALL. 3-4 bottles(1pt. 9 fl. oz.) Early morning S/F jello Breakfast 8 oz. skim milk protein shake Snack S/F jello Lunch scrambled egg Snack 2 S/F ice pop Dinner 8 oz. skim milk protein shake Evening Mug of chicken broth I walk 1mile everyday and strive for 2 on many and take the required amount of vitamins. Thanks for listening. I also posted on my the other board. THANKS GUYS!

*Hugs* You sound like your doing everything right, you'll get through this I have faith in you!!!Keep us all updated and remember were ALWAYS here when you need a hug!!!

Hello, just want you to know that you are doing a great job. I am sure the period of adjustment is different for everyone. You are so well informed and not afraid to ask questions, which is always a plus. Take care honey, and don't feel down, you have been a great source of comfort for me and I am pulling for you. NoraLynn

First off CONGRATS...you are doing great. The blues that set in are totally normal. We have to remember that we are mourning a part of our lives that gave us comfort and companionship for so long. Its a realization we all come to . Also if we dont see the weight comming off as fast as we would like we tend to think we are doing something wrong. You are doing great and the weight will continue to drop off and you will start to feel better. Just be sure to keep reaching out for support. Hang in there.... LisaMarie

You didn't get heavy over night nor will you slim down over night. I am losing very slowly myself. I lost more on Optifast than with the operation. it will come, I am waiting myself. But determined. I slip everyday, it's part of the learning process. That is why this is not the easy way out as some people say it is. Good Luck and good luck to me. It will work if you let it.

Penny~First let me give you a great big (((HUG))) then let me tell you that you are an amazing woman! You wrote that so beautifully! You are doing fantastic and I have not had the surgery yet. I have heard the mourning of the food. You are not crazy. You keep up the good work and do not doubt yourself! In no time you are going to be really seeing a change and feeling a change. You adding exercise is HUGE and so AWESOME! More (((HUGS))) lots of cheering going on from me to you!