We Are The Harshest On Ourselves...

An Exerpt Taken From My Blog Last Night: The reason why I wrote this is because something occurred to me tonight. For people who have such low self esteem, we sure take an awful lot of time focusing on just ourselves and a lot of time thinking that others are thinking of us too. More than anything I would love to change that aspect of my personality. I have wasted so many years worrying about things like this, whether true or perceived. All that really counts is that the people who truly love you, love you because you are you. It's not the way you look, but what you bring to their lives. Now more than ever, I would love to have the WLS because I finally want to feel like the best person I can be. I want to walk my dog with a minimum of pain in my knees. I would love to throw a frisbee with my son (who now resides at the beach) without feeling like I had 50lb. weights on each shoulder. I just want to walk, walk, walk,walk like I used to. I want to be able volunteer without the recipient feeling as if the roles should be reversed! I want to have a tool that might help me to have a more normal relationship with food. The surgery date is March 19th pending the Insurance Company's approval. I have to call this week and find out if everything is in the works. I have done everything required of me, but for whatever reason, I'm not feeling optomistic. I'll just hope, hope and pray. Never before I have felt so resolute about changing the course of my life. Thinking out loud again... Diane

I hear you exactly. You need to read my profile. I will tell you too; it does feel great to be healthy once again!!! I can't wait till nice weather when I am going to challenge it all!!!! Good luck with your approval and the upcoming of the new you!

Hey Penny I hear you loud and clear. I have been away from the boards for a few months but I had my surgery June 12,2006 I was 335 that day. Today I weigh 209. Life has changed in soooooo many ways. I habve now become a participant in my 2 boys lives instead of a spectator. It is amazing what changes come as you shed the pounds. I had become a virtual hermit at 335. I would avoid contact with people especially those I had not seen in a while for fear of the look I would get when they saw the way I had ballooned. My marriage took a seriou**** as I was miserable and tended to make those around me miserable as well. To the point that We got divorced. Things have gotten so much better post op that my ex wife and I have actually decided to give it a second chance. She was with me throughout the whole pre op stage even though we had seperated. I wish you all the best keep your chin up and stay positive. I believe good things happen to good people and you sound like a good person.

Thanks for the validation guys/girls. More helpful than you know. Take Care.