On the pity pot

I wonder if I will ever see myself as others do. I have been looking at myself in the mirror every morning before I get in the shower. I try to see the thinner person. It's funny b/c I've finally stopped shopping in plus sizes. It took me a year to finally accept the fact that I'm a size 12/14 and not a size 24/26. Developing a new life is a slow process but one well worth it.

You are Beautiful!! Tina

Hi Kendra, You were amongst one of the first inspirations I saw on this board. Wow 115 pounds! You've done so well. I'm in the same size as you are. I'm down 116 pounds, with 18 pounds left to lose and I also have the same issues...I'm called tiny and skinny and I don't see it. Especially when I look at the fat roll in the mirror. You've done so well! Kristine

Thank you. I have to say that you too are amazing. I think that it's going to be a struggle to see myself as thin. It's funny b/c I was talking to a couple of teenager file clerks in my office yesterday. These girls are 16 and 18. They are talking about how "fat" and unattractive they are. One girl is a size 7 and she is looking to diet in order to take off 10 pounds. The other is a size 5 that thinks she is severely overweight. It's very difficult to hear that coming from young ladies. I fear that society has definitely put too much emphasis on being thin. Anyway I think after that conversation yesterday I am going to have to work really hard at looking in the mirror and seeing a person - not a fat person, not a thin person - just a person. Just me.

Hi Kendra This sounds weird but thanks for being on the pity pot. The responses you received were inspirational. I was very skinny 15 years ago because of diet pills and other stuff Swore I would never be fat again- 15 years later and 120 lbs. more I am 1 week post lap band and scared to death that I will never see myself as skinny or be able to maintain a weight that I feelI look good at. The problem was last time I was so sure of myself that I became very ****y about being skinny that I forgot it takes daily work to remember that I was once a fat person on a lucky streak. This time around I hope to be a little smarter and take one day at at a time and start to care for myself and like myself from the inside. Your picture looks great and 115 lbs loss is amazing I wish I was a size 12 Right now I am getting rid of the 26-28 sizes and some old 18 sizes are starting to fit again Hang in there one day you will see thin and you will be able to do so much with your 7 year old. I have a fifteen year old who can't wait to ski with me this winter and maybe even share some clothes I also hate this weather. I was hoping my recuperation week would be better weather I love being outdoors in the sun It boosts my mood I have been outdoors walking but is has been too damp cloudy and chilly to really enjoy Hang in there 'thinner Kendra" and any time you need to vent go right ahead It helps all of us