"Is this a sign?"

Hi everyone, I am making myself nuts .... all night I was thinking "Is this s sign?" that my surgery was canceled and rescheduled? I was SO sure, SO postive and SO ready. We are having a 90 th birthday party for my "gram" two days before my surgery and my whole family will be there. I thought - was my surgery rescheduled so I can see everyone - before I go into surgery ...Just in case. I am thinking - I have three small daughters - Am I being selfish? ... God Forbid anything happens. I don't know ... anyone else feel like this? hugs, Britt

Britt, I too went through a hiccup on the way to my surgery, although mine was an insurance snafu, so I understand being ready and then having it cancelled. Very frustrating, I cried for a day and a half, I was so devastated. As far as a sign, I think you can read anything into anything if you choose to, but I would choose not to and start working toward the new date and your new life. And it's not being selfi****'s taking care of your needs. Your daughters need you around for a good long time and this is one way that can help that happen. How can you be strong for them if you are not strong for yourself first? I went through the surgery in April and had complications and was hospitalized 3 times after my surgery, but I would still do it again in a heartbeat. I feel so good now and as my surgeon said to me, the complications I had were short term, but the surgery was designed to keep me healthy for the next 30 - 40 years. Enjoy your gram's party, not as a last time, a just in case, but as a time to celebrate her life. And know that you will be there healthy and happy for her 91st, too. Good luck to you! Stay positive! Sue

Sue, If could jump through this computer and ((((HUG))) you I would!!!! Thanks so much! You made me feel better Britt

Britt, Susan is right in what she is saying. This will be the start of you new life, yes there are risks but staying heavy has it's own set of risks Turn this around and think that how great it is to see all your family and they get to see the old you before surgery! Because after you will be changing so quickly. Selfish??? FAR from it hun....this is the ONE thing you are doing for yourself and your family, that is not selfish! You are taking care of this and making changes! Please know that this is a very good and healthy choice. If ya need to chat please email me and I can give you my numbers or you can send yours. Debra P

Thanks Debra! YOU are right I should be focusing on the POSTIVE! THANKS FOR THE CHAT OFFER ... i'll email you Britt

Hi Britt, Your surgery is important but family is more important...enjoy the day for who will be there including yourself. Have fun and eat some cake... November is a good month for surgery and it's not that far away. You can spend the time planning your meals, cleaning out your closet of the summer clothes that you will not fit into next year; consider visiting a consignment store to get a few winter items in one or two or three sizes smaller than what you are in now... lots to do!!! I will celebrate my one year on the 7th of November and we will also be November anniversary buddies!!! Here's to a successful year for you and your family!!!! Take care and stay as positive as possible Please feel free to email me with any questions as well. You will like the staff at Mercy, they know what they are doing!!! LindaM

Thanks Linda, I am planning making good use of the time I have before my surgery. I LOVE your Idea about going through and getting rid of my OLD summer clothes that will not fit next year I will eat some cake an d other goodies at her party as my last horrah - before my big day. thanks again, You are sooooo sweet! Britt

Britt, Everything happens for a reason. Nobody knows the reason, but there is one. Don't stress over it. Just remember, there is a reason that it was cancelled and it's for the best. I had a moment of "omg what am I doing" just before being wheeled into the operating room. My husband looked over to me (from his paper) and said, why are you crying. I had a moment of, this may be the last time i see him and I was bawling. It lasted 2 minutes. I snapped out of it and thought, if I don't do this, I may not see him much longer anyways You have to know that you are doing this to better your life. I can not take away your anxious, selfish, nervous, scared, or any other feeling you are having, but know this......it IS normal. Oh and one more thing............. it's awesome being on the losers side Much love and hugs, Molly

Molly, I guess all NERVES are normal. Deep down I know that I am doing the right thing and I want this SO bad. I just let my NERVES get the best of me. i cannot wait to be a looser like you Britt

Thanks guys for helping me "snap out if it!" I know that this what I really want and something that will help me to live a better - healthier life. thanks for your support Britt