Thanks - I actually feel a little better today...I managed (forced myself) to get to the gym last night (thank you 24/7 hours!) and I started chuckling at how ridiculous I must have looked crying while eating a sandwich... I am sure it was not a pretty moment..but you are right  I am human and onward and upward! (or in the case of the WLS downward!)  :-) Thanks for the encouragement and pep talk!

I am so bummed out today...got a call from my surgeon's office - because the assisting surgeon couldn't be there so they moved my date from 5/10 to 5/17 (just like that)....I had already lined stuff up, got myself mentally ready for the date and worked so hard to get to goal weight for pre-surgery.....so we rescheduled - and I know I should be happy that my insurance approved it and I have bin moving forward because I know so many folks have had worse set-backs... but I couldn't help it, I was so very frustrated, and I think with the stressful few months, with my mom passing, and my being sick for weeks etc. etc....I started to cry.... then I had a BIG tuna, cheese and bacon sandwich on rye with regular chips, pickle and soda (I had not had a sandwich like that in months)....so a real weak moment and I feel bad for doing it and after my eyes cleared  and i wiped the snot and sandwich crumbs off my face I did not feel any better... :-( I know one week should not be a big deal but for some reason it just bugged me!  Anyhow - thanks for letting me vent!  I have to remember one day at a time!

Well the poo hit the fan in February, I lost my job, which in turn caused things at home to take a bad turn.

We ended up having to move, I am now officially stay at home mom looking for others children to care for during the day to help supplement the household income.  Took an evening job waiting tables... and with all the stress I dropped 23lbs!! Yup went UNDER my goal which in turn put me at a BMI of 38.

So I delayed my appointment with Dr. Snow until May so I can have some time to put SOME weight back on, focus again on me, and dealing with all the crappola that happened all at once.

If all goes well I will do my next support group in May, my last exercise appt on the 20th of April, and then my appt with Dr. Snow on the 24th of May which then sets me up to meet the surgeon in June and surgery in July (later than I had hoped but at least I am still on track).

Hope everyone is well!!

After not  being sure if I would have work today, I am actually excited that I am here.

Breakfast - egg, cheese & bacon
Lunch - Greek Yogurt
dinner - Haddock w/ steamed veggies and sweet potato
snack - cheese stick

Hope everyone has a great Monday & you can get out to enjoy the weather!!!

It has been busy at work and I have been getting over being sick for what seems like forever...still don't have all of my voice back yet!  BUT I am Happy to say I finally have a surgery date of 5/10/11! I am soo excited and nervous. trying to get everything ready for the big day.
I hope to go to the Portsmouth support group on the 25th to get inspired and prepared.
Thank you all for the positive energy and support... will keep posting through the journey!