HAVE TO WAIT ANOTHER MONTH

Okay. so I have been bad about choices of my meals. I gained 5 friggin pounds when I saw Liz Monday. She told me I needed to cut the crap and get serious. *not in those words, but I knew what she meant* Well I met w/ Dr D on Thursday and he said basicaly the same thing. He said he was sorry to disapoint me, but he wouldnt do surgery untill I was serious. I am serious. I have been so emotional lately about food and need to work out feelings. I have finally decided to cut the crap and get busy. I have been doing awsome this week. I HAVE to get this done. The worst part??? Jen had penciled me in for March 30th. So now it will be the end of April. BUT I guess Dr D is right. I was SO upset, I went and cried in my car for 20 minutes. The good thing is...instead of heading to Brewsters for my snickers blast...I went to Sears and bought a purse on clearance. That was awsome. I didnt turn to food! Breakthru moment. I had my last coping skills class, and feel I did get benefits from it. I got blood work and a chest xray before my appt w/ Dr D on Thursday. I hope I dont have to do it again. I missed 3 hours of work for nothing if I have to do it again. I thought this might help someone who is still struggling with pre op weight loss. The longer you procrastinate losing this weight, the longer it will take to get the procedure. Thanks for listening! Chris

Chris, Sorry to hear you had a tough month. Better now than after the surgery. I have been so committed to doing everything right. Had my surgery in August and am down 102 pounds so far. Until just recently. On Wednesday I was out running errands and chatting a mile a minute with my sister. Didn't pay attention to what I was doing and ate my daughter's chocolate glazed donut. Boy oh boy did I pay for that!! I spent two hours dry heaving and rolling around on the bathroom floor with unbelievable cramping. I called the doc's office and was told to let it go another 2-3 hours. If it didn't stop by then, then I should call and go to the ER. I was having a dumping episode. I'll tell you what. I NEVER want to do that again! Take your time and learn your lessons now. In the long run it will help you be more committed. We all have a momentary lapse of reason every now and again, but better before the surgery than after. Best of luck to you! Heidi

Hey Chris, I would have written sooner, but I just got back from PA. I'm sorry to hear you've had such a bad week. Whoever said that this is easy lied. You have come so far. You are so close. Try not to get discouraged. This month will be over before you know it. Obviously you are on the right track, since you fought the temptation to eat when you were upset. That takes a lot of willpower. Hang in there. I'm here if you ever want to talk. Hugz.

Hi Jelly....do I feel silly calling you that (it's my brothers' "pet" name for me as a kid). I was reading your story. Congratulations on your progress so far. I am glad your job is so supportive. I have a question about your insurance. You said you had Anthem BC/BS. They are covering it? That is the insurance I have and I have been hearing that they stopped covering it as of Jan 1. I was getting very depressed, getting ready to write letters to the governor and all (hey, I already wrote one to the Insurance Comissioner). Now I am starting to feel a little more hopeful. How has your experience with Anthem been? Thanks, Carrie