Really?!?

**Warning... Total Ramble on my part to follow.... don't expect it to make sense... I just need to get it all out!**

I had an appointment with Dr Gens today so I got an official weigh in.

Seems that I'm now down 83lbs from my highest (known) weight, and down 76 from starting the program last October!!! I can't believe I have lost so much in such a short time... and with the Band to boot!!

However, my most shocking moment occurred as I left the office. My Husband showed up late so he wasn't there when I got my official weight. When I told him what I was at he said "Isn't that your goal?" At first I blew him off but then I remembered, when I 1st signed up this is the weight I wanted to reach (never thought it would be at all possible to get to my 'ideal', which I still think is stretching it). I'm amazed on so many levels... on thinking that I would never make it to this weight less than a year ago, thinking that my current weight would be my ideal (still having that seeing myself as 'fat' thing) and knowing I have, with all the hard work, managed to get myself to the place I was when I met my husband so many years ago. I'm happy that I have made it here, but also proud of myself for still wanting to lose and not just taking the easy way out staying here. I think that in the back of my head was what I was doing a year ago.... not losing all the recommended because everything in the past had failed, so why shouldn't this new adventure. At least getting here would get me healthier and perhaps not as hard as going in all the way. (i have always been lazy after all!)

Even Dr. Gens seemed excited for me :) Seems he likes to see lap band people do well since it can be so much slower for them :) Apparently there have been 3 lap band people to do the same as I have in the last year.... and he likes that.

oh... and now... I'm just Fat according to my BMI.... Never thought that would be just 'overweight' again! heehee

Pokes, that is just wonderful.  You should be so proud.  It is nice to see a lapbander do so well.  You look absolutely amazing also.  You can ramble all you want about your success.  You have earned it!

pokes.. you are doing a great job!!

congrats on making your"goal"  even though its not your goal now.. as jeff told us a goal weight is a "moving target" and  you will have to adjust it to how you feel/look ...

a little funny about still seeing your self as "fat" .. yesterday i stepped on 3 different scales because i could not beleve that i am really below 200 lbs .... but sure enough at 6pm i weighed 198.6 clothed then at home 194.5 (i know that scale is off 4lb) then at 9pm on the Wii iwas 198 clothed ( the little voice told me it was worried that i was losing too much weight again ;-) )
when we beleve that we are not who we were a year ago? will we ever?
and don't listen to anyone if they tell you " eat something" (except dr gens)... people have been telling me that a lot lately and it makes me madder than when they told me how fat i was!

see ya monday

dave

 That is so great Rant away.  You deserve all the praise and pats on the back.  You have worked hard to get this far and only you can decide how far you want to go. 
Keep up the great work, but be gentle on the knee. 

Thanks Guys

I actually just updated my weight in my ipod (where I only record official weigh in weights) and it told me I reached my goal!! It was exciting for a second... then I lowered my goal another 25lbs

there you go pokes!
don't settle! there is no reason you can't reach any goal you set for your self!

dave

woohoo~!  Us bandsters CAN reach our goals.  You are doing great and just know that it is totally possible!

That is so awesome!!  You are doing so well, that must have been so exciting.  Keep up the good work - the sky's the limit!!  Rant on - you've earned it!