band and revision planned for next week

I got my band in July 2006 and from the beginning it was not right.  I had to have it so tight to lose weight that eating was downright painful and on top of that I was a slow loser.  I got pregnant with my third baby and gained some weight. After having her the doctor and I started with fills again.  Sadly something now was really amiss. I was either not able to eat at all or was eating but having horrible gastric reflux at night. I spent much time with my doctor and she suggested revision.  I am petrified of gastric bypass so I said I wanted to keep trying with the band.  She suggested 6 months working with the band and then we would talk. Well here I am.  They could not get the awful reflux to stop so I finally decided that I was going to go with the revision.  I have to have my band out, a hernia fixed and the bypass.  I start a weeklong liquid diet tomorrow.  I have been doing liquids and one meal for the last 3 days.
I am terrified of the surgery itself but also at failing. Even though my doctor told me that from the beginning my lap band wasn't working with my body I still feel like I failed and I am afraid I will have this surgery and fail again...

You did not fail! The band and your body did not agree, it was not like you planned it that way.  I hope you will give this new tool a chance.  Don't give up on yourself and let the Dr's do what they need to do and just let your body heal.   This will work for you.  I am only a few weeks out, but I have seen my hubby do wonderful.  Please let me know if you need anything. 

I know how you feel, I had the same problem, it did not start for me until I had a fill one day and then the acid reflux was so bad I could nto eat for 2 weeks, they tried everying, I went baout 6 months and I could not take it anymore, I had it removed, I as well was very afarid, I know people who had a bypass and had major problmes, it scares me as well, i opted for now to just have the band out and see how that goes I can tell you that every day is a struggle nad some days I win and others I dont, I have learned to take things one day at a time and that i have to watch everythign that i eat i am able to eat "normal" portion so I measure everything, I dont know what the future will bring but I am trying it solo for now, I had the same feelings of shame and regreat, I also felt like everyone was going to be waiting for me to gain back the weight and point at me and say see told you so, it was very frustraing, but once I was able to get out of my own head I decided to increase exercise and atch what I est, i had the band removed in May and 2 months later I have not gained weight, have not lost but I been able to maintained and right now that is all the I am looking to do, I wish you the best of luck, I know how hard this can be....