So Frustrated!

All I have to do is loose 10 lbs to just get the appt to meet with Dr.Gould! I have ALL my paperwork done, psych eval's done etc, etc. I've been going to the bariatric seminars in Manchester for 6 months now. I feel like a freakin idiot because WHY the hell am I having such a massive hard time to loose this weight. I did I lost 5 lbs and only needed to lose 5 more, then at xmas time I put 3 lbs on but I was still down. Then lost 2 lbs now I just got weighed in and gained 3 more lbs since Easter. So now I have lose 8 lbs! AHHH then my husband is all bent out of shape because he thinks once I drop the 10 lbs it's an automatic schedule the surgery. No what happens I told him I have to wait for an opening JUST to meet with Dr. Gould to go over my plan, that could be 2 months to wait just for that appt! So I could gain weight waiting! Then from there we schedule the surgery which could be up to a 7-8 week wait from there! So he's just annoyed because I realize he has to give his company notice and the summer time is much easier for him to take off then fall/winter time! It's frustrating all around! I need to get my stuff in gear and get in gear! My will power just simply has to change! I'm 36 yrs old and have been cigarette free for 5 yrs! I have no Temptations and I can quit that! Food is just so hard and it's temptations everywhere I go and I cave in so much!! URRRGGHH Sorry to vent just need to get it out!

It is frustrating, but you have to do this for you, not your husband, his job, or anything else.  Just you.  You quit smoking, but actually that is easier than trying to cut down your eating.  Why?  Because you don't HAVE to smoke, but you still have to eat. 

You just have to do it.  Remind yourself each day, hour, minute if needed that you are headed for a healthier, happier life.  Is it worth that piece of chocolate, or extra serving?  Is it worth the stress you are putting on yourself to eat?  It is a hard choice to make, but as they say, JUST DO IT!!!!!!

You can do this!!  I thought the same thing, that I would never lose the 10 llbs.  I did and so can you.  I tell you what I did.  For breakfast I had a protein shake.  You have to get use to having them anyway, so start now and have one for breakfast.  You would be amazed at how quick the weight will come off and you will keep it off. 

You have chosen the BEST surgeon.  He not only did my lapband surgery, but he is operating on me tomorrow to fix a hernia where my c-section scar is. 

Just remember there is a light at the end of the tunnel and it's worth it. 

I felt the same way, I started this journey with my hubby with the intent to have my surgery about 4 months after him, but life can get in the way.  If you stress out over this it will only get worse.  Take a deep breath and realize this is for you.  You are the only one who can do this and you will get there when it is right for you.  That being said it is always easier said than done.  We have all been there and I know I thought I would never get to my goal weight.  I had 14 lbs to lose, and I actually gained 4 before I lost so it was a total of 18 for me.  But when I decided it was right for me I stopped sabotaging my self and actually lost what I needed plus a little more.  I am actually continuing to lose a little each week so I won't have an issue when it is time for the surgery. 

You can do this!!!!! Just take the next minute to tell your self that, then go for 10 minutes and from there if you need another 10 take it as you can.  May God grant you the serenity to change the things you can and the Wisdom to know when you have to change.

((((HUGS)))))
Laurie