Here we are again...Monday!

Good Morning everyone,

I'm in a rut...a big one!  Seems like i just go through the motions of my day...to get to the next one, and do it over and over again!  Wow...how pathetic does that sound huh?  Well...anyway, i think its because i'm so busy, and i use it as an excuse to not pay attention to planning foods, or time for exercise etc.... hence bad decisions...leading to regret, and frustration with myself...leading to me just wanting the day to be over...to start again.

I'm a control FREAK...huge, and i feel out of control with my life...and if anyone can relate, when your a control freak...lack of control IS NOT good.  It was that lack of control in my life before that created depression and irritability and continued weight gain.  So here i am...pledging to gain control, to feel better about myself, and get back on track.  Thank god i have't gained, and i don't want that to happen, so i really need to do this.

My plan for today

OK...honestly...dont have one!

I've thrown a few good things in my bag, and i'm having a lunch meeting today...so i will probably have salad w/some protein

Dinner...going shopping after work...no idea

Water...will get in the water!

Just the fact that you are posting and sharing your frustrations means that you're on the right track.  If you were ignoring all those signs, that would really mean trouble.  You've thrown a "few good things in" your bag for lunch today.  I think that's a very positive step.  You could have opted to just get take out.  You've just got to realize that you are doing good things.  Maybe you just can't get everything right every day, but you're working on it.  As long as you keep building on the good stuff, before you know it, you will have that "perfect" day.  So, even though you think you don't have control of your life/eating right now, if you really sat down and thought about it, I'd bet you have more control than you're giving yourself credit for.  So stop focusing on the negative - concentrate on the positive, and those are the habits that will start to become easier. 


Have a great day!

Kris, I agree completely with Kathy.  We all go through different things at different times.  I feel your pain with the control thing....That is me too.  My problem is that once something is out of my control, I tend to just give in. 

I think just the fact that you have not gained tells me that you are more in control than you think.  You said that lack of control led to depression and continued weight gain, neither which is happening now as far as I can tell!!  So hang in there.  You are doing awesome.

Back on my plan. For some reason I seem to be stronger today.  I have resisted so many things that could have been my downfall!  There is cake, ice cream, cookies and chips in my house from Cam's party yesterday, and non made it into my mouth!! 

So my plan:

Breakfast:  Shake with 1/4 cup cherries

Snack:  Crackers and greek yogurt

Lunch:  I have cheese and crackers and an apple.

Snack:  cottage cheese with Strawberries

Dinner:  I put chicken out, so hopefully Gary will make something yummy with it.  I have an interview tonight in Concord, so I am probably going to be late. 

I weighed myself this morning, and although not happy, I am using it as my new starting point.  It will be all downhill from here!

well here is my last plan for a couple of weeks or so...(well the rest will all be the same)

b-shake with skim milk
l- tuna with crakers
s-crakers
dinner.. not sure but i will try to make something good..

kris i agree with every one else you have a lot more of a plan then you thinl and you will make better choices then you think !

bamma great job with staying away from all of the party remnents! now just get rid of them so they are not around to tempt you!!!