Ok. This amazes me!
Hi again. I'm being a post *****! LOL!
So, I worked out this morning (HARD!) Then I showered and headed off to the Mall of NH (btw, did you know they took out Citizens Bank? I was pissed & shocked.) Anyway, I got what I needed and was getting hungry (only had 1 cup of coffee & 1 protein shake so far.) I still had to go to the bank and Rite Aid. I REALLY wanted to get an iced coffee at D&D and planned on it. I also wanted a BLT from USA subs (too lazy to come home and figure out lunch....and too hungry) and I wanted to go to Rite Aid for some mascara. I went to the Bank (ATM), then to USA subs (got a small BLT w/cheese & pickles on wheat) then right to Rite Aid (which is right accross the street.) I told myself I would make a CLIC****d protein drink instead of going to D&D (Yay me!) By the time I got home I was starving. I immediately opened my sub and took a big bite then went to make a CLICK shake. Then I sat down and slowly ate my BLT and I'm about 1/2 way done and I'm FULL! I hadn't even taken a sip of the drink yet. Now, my head was telling me to eat the rest, then my conscience said "save it for later." So I did. Pre-surgery I would have ordered a LARGE sub, got the D&D iced coffee, bought chips to eat with my sub and I would have eaten the entire thing. THIS is how I have always wanted to feel ALL MY LIFE!!! IN CONTROL!!! It brings tears to my eyes thinking about how much I have changed....ALL for the better!
Ok. That's it.
Lisa
So, I worked out this morning (HARD!) Then I showered and headed off to the Mall of NH (btw, did you know they took out Citizens Bank? I was pissed & shocked.) Anyway, I got what I needed and was getting hungry (only had 1 cup of coffee & 1 protein shake so far.) I still had to go to the bank and Rite Aid. I REALLY wanted to get an iced coffee at D&D and planned on it. I also wanted a BLT from USA subs (too lazy to come home and figure out lunch....and too hungry) and I wanted to go to Rite Aid for some mascara. I went to the Bank (ATM), then to USA subs (got a small BLT w/cheese & pickles on wheat) then right to Rite Aid (which is right accross the street.) I told myself I would make a CLIC****d protein drink instead of going to D&D (Yay me!) By the time I got home I was starving. I immediately opened my sub and took a big bite then went to make a CLICK shake. Then I sat down and slowly ate my BLT and I'm about 1/2 way done and I'm FULL! I hadn't even taken a sip of the drink yet. Now, my head was telling me to eat the rest, then my conscience said "save it for later." So I did. Pre-surgery I would have ordered a LARGE sub, got the D&D iced coffee, bought chips to eat with my sub and I would have eaten the entire thing. THIS is how I have always wanted to feel ALL MY LIFE!!! IN CONTROL!!! It brings tears to my eyes thinking about how much I have changed....ALL for the better!
Ok. That's it.
Lisa
Congratulations!!!!! 
You should be so proud of yourself. You've worked really hard, and you deserve to be in this great place that you're in right now. Good for you and keep up the good work. You should reward yourself with something, but not food.
Maybe a nice long, relaxing
You should be so proud of yourself. You've worked really hard, and you deserve to be in this great place that you're in right now. Good for you and keep up the good work. You should reward yourself with something, but not food. Maybe a nice long, relaxing
"I am not the skin I'm in, but the soul within."
That is a great example of what I am learning in this process...
that every day is a choice to follow the path or veer off. Pre-op I was always veering off never even acknowledging the path...every day I drive by Mc'dees etc on my way to work, and some days I still think...breakfast sandwich...I don't do it, but I still have to make the choice many days...it's easier now, but it's still my choice.
And secondly to listen to my body...when it is full, acknowldege it's full, and push the plate away.
I've thrown away more food in the past several months than I ever thought I would. All those starving kids in China...I think China has more $$ than we do at this point.
But there are many days my head still wants to eat even though my body is satisfied...and that's been a challenge for me to honor my body and get my head occupied with something else.
You put it so well! Great job!
that every day is a choice to follow the path or veer off. Pre-op I was always veering off never even acknowledging the path...every day I drive by Mc'dees etc on my way to work, and some days I still think...breakfast sandwich...I don't do it, but I still have to make the choice many days...it's easier now, but it's still my choice.
And secondly to listen to my body...when it is full, acknowldege it's full, and push the plate away.
I've thrown away more food in the past several months than I ever thought I would. All those starving kids in China...I think China has more $$ than we do at this point.
But there are many days my head still wants to eat even though my body is satisfied...and that's been a challenge for me to honor my body and get my head occupied with something else.
You put it so well! Great job!
Very well said Diane! You hit the nail on the head for sure! It really comes down to just being "normal." We have never been normal before so it's a learning process. Our obsession with food got us into trouble, but no any more! And, I agree, the wasted food is amazing. It took me many months to let go and throw out the food I couldn't eat. Now I can do it without flinching.
Have a great day!
Lisa
Have a great day!
Lisa
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