I'm so disappointed in myself.

So, yesterday all I did was eat.  I totally fell back into my old habits.  I ate crap too!  I felt like **** and I still kept eating.  I told myself I had ruined the day already and proceeded to make it a worse day (just like I use to do before surg.)  I went to bed feeling like crap, slept like crap and feel like crap this morning,....

I know for sure I'm PMS'ing, but it doesn't give me an excuse to eat like this.  I guess today is a new day and I'll do better, but I'm just not happy with myself.

Lisa

I think yesterday was the day for that.  I had such a hard time all day.  I ate everything I shouldn't and nothing that I should have.  So don't be too hard on yourself.  I know with me it is stress, but like I said yesterday, I think the honeymoon is over!!!!!

We have to remember that we are learning everyday how to deal with our relationship with food.
The fact that you recognize when you have made the wrong choices and reaffirm your commitment to do better is fantastic. Today is a new day - we can't do anything about yesterday but we can do something about today. We all have come very far on our journey and yes that honeymoon is long gone. But we can do it and together we will!!!

Rosemary

Hey Lisa - Cut yourself some slack!  The fact that you realize that you didn't have a good day is 90% of the battle.  Besides, presurgery, you probably wouldn't have said that you ruined the day already, but that you ruined the diet already, and would not have gotten right back on track like you are doing.  And, when is the last time that you fell off of your plan?  I'll bet that it's been a long time - a lot longer than when you would do that presurgery.  Sounds like you're right back on track, so you can beat yourself up for 5 minutes, then move on with positive thoughts.  That's my 5 minute rule.  I use that rule for a lot of stuff.  It's something my daughters' softball coach used to let them do if they screwed up on the field.  Be angry at yourself for  5 minutes, then get your head back in the game.

Have a great day!

Kathy

Hi Lisa,
I'm new here and might totally be off-base in what I'm saying, but I don't think so.  I've learned a lot over the past year or so in my life and one of the big things is to turn off that inner voice that says "I'm a failure", "It ruined my day", "I'm mad at myself" and so on.  I know it is incredibly hard to do, especially with a topic that is as sensitive as this.  But like every other disorder, what is important is when you fall you get back up and push yourself harder.  I see your stats, you have NOTHING to be upset with yourself on.  You truly look amazing and have done marvelous in your journey.  Even if you didn't lose another pound (which you will), you still have much to be proud of. 

Matt White

Thanks Matt,

I appreciate your kind words.  I have gotten right back on track and now I'm feeling better.  It feels incredible to be able to get back on track because before surgery I probably would have given up and gone on a month long binge which would have led to gaining weight. 

Good luck with everything.  Let me/us know if you have any questions.  We have people from all stages of surgery here to help.

Lisa