My own worse enemu

Martha,
I'm an RNYer so I don't really know much about the LapBand, but do you think you may need another fill?

Other than that, my advice is pretty much the same as everyone else - write it all down, go to support groups, keep exercising, drink the water and talk talk talk to yourself.  When I do eat, I try to put it on a plate and make myself sit down at the table and eat it.  That takes time, it's mindful and helps stop the shove-it-in-your-mouth kind of eating. 

Good luck - you can lick this thing!
Kathy

Yup, just had a fill....eating around it!!!  I have done really well so far today, so I think I am just going to take it one minute at a time.

That's all you can do.  If you watch the minutes, the hours will take care of themselves!

I have also endured the same thing.  Where I sabotage myself.  About 3 years ago I lost over 120 pounds by doing extreme exerciseing and dieting.  My goal was to fit into a bridesmaid dress I got for my cousins wedding once I accomplished that goal.  It felt great everyone told me how great I looked but then I told myself I could take a break for alittle while but the break never stopped.  I gained all 120 pounds back plus about 30 pounds.

I think you just need to keep remembering where you have been and where you want to go.  Which of couse is easier said than done.  Also you need to give yourself a break for this month and let yourself have fun in florida or else the vacation won't be as fun.  Just work on maintaining everything over the vacation then when you get back you can give yourself a extra push.

Martha my friend - you CAN and WILL get through this!! Remember one minute at a time if that's what it takes. We all struggle at times but it will pass. You are doing better this time because you are recognizing the issues before they overtake you. Good job!!

I'm so sorry you're going through such a hard time.  I wish there was a magic way to just fix it all and get you back on track.  Why not make a list of the things that you can do now that you couldn't do before you lost so much and then a list of goals for what you want to do when all the weight is off?  Sometimes looking at how far I've come and how much has changed for me helps me to stay on track, or get back on track when I've strayed.   (((((HUG)))))

 

I know what you mean about likening it to alcoholism.  Personally, I have a weird way I think about it too. 

I have a disease called Obesity.  It's in my head now, not my body.  Currently, I am not showing any symptoms.  I am in remission, thanks to by WLS.  But should I revert to my previous behaviors, my obesity could flare up again at any time.  Since this is a disease I fight in my head I need head solutions for dealing with it (Jeff advice, hub-n'-spoke, support group, etc).  It's like medicine.  For my head.  To keep me from relapsing into Obesity again. 

But I need to accept that just as many alcoholics can NEVER take a drink again, no matter how many years sober, that no matter how far out from my WLS surgery I am - I still suffer from Obesity in my head.  There are things normally skinny people can do that I can't.  And never will.  I must be mindful.  I must be aware.  I must be deliberate.  I will never be cured of my Obesity, but I plan to remain in remission for the rest of my life. 

Told you it was weird.

:-)
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