My own worse enemu

Okay, I am finally asking for help.  I am coming clean....I have been really struggling.  Gaining and losing the same three pounds for the past month.  I leave for Florida next week, and I am not where I want to be. 

Been thinking, and paying attention, and I have come to realize that I am my own worse enemy.  It seems that when I get to a certain weight (and this has been every time I try to lose weight), something in me just shuts down, and I revert to old habits.  I am trying to listen to my own advise that I have given others, but WOW it is way easier to give it, than to live it.

So, what do you do when you are sabotaging yourself?  I am not hungry, but eating.  I am not bored, but I still find time to eat.  I am eating healthier foods!!  But still craving those foods that I love (but should not have).  I am also eating around my band right now.  Paying the price sometimes. 

Hmmm  Any suggestions???????

Hey Martha,

Have you tried logging everything you eat either on the computer or paper log.  If you have to write EVERYTHING down most times it is a deterrent.  I hope this helps and good luck.

I just got a program from Jacquie....do you think I have installed it yet....no!!!!  Okay, so that is on my to do list today at the top. 

Thanks Jaimbry, that will be a big help. 

I hope it works for you.  Let me know if you are going to the meeting on Monday, yes the meeting should be this Monday (2nd Monday of the month).  It's early this month. 

I will definately be there. 

I know what you mean.  I really haven't lost any weight in four months,and that's frustrating.  I started using fitday to record every morsel, and discovered that I was eating a lot more than I realized I was.  I started getting lazy and stopped measuring and counting everything.

If you find the answer, let me know, because I struggle every day.  I just keep reminding myself that I am MUCH healthier (and thinner) than I was this time last year, and if I work at it, I can be even healthier at this time NEXT year.  :)

I just thought I was over struggling with this, but I guess I never really will.  Someone told me that the struggle will continue to become easier and easier the more you work to break the habit. 

I am going to start writing things down, and also telling myself I am not hungry, just wanting to eat.  And yes it is amazing when you start writing everything down, how much you really are eating.

Hi Martha-

Funny that you mention that you get to a certain weight then sabotage yourself.  That's the story of my life before GBS.  It feels defeating, I know.  I wish I had a magic cure for you.  Have you tried a therapist that specializes in weight loss surgery?  For me, a lot of my issues are in my head (as opposed to my stomach) and I tell myself I need food to compensate for what I'm feeling.  I'm prob. no help, but I do wish you luck in finding the right tool to stop sabotaging yourself.

Lisa

I actually spoke with someone today, and we talked about it.  She equates my situation to that of an alcoholic.  I still keep things in the house, because my husband wants it, but they are such red light foods for me.  We are trying to work out a strategy for me to "voice" my need to not have them in the house.  She also gave me other ideas that I need to put in action.  I realize that I have been saying I can't....Ginjer does that sound familiar!! :-)  She said I need to start saying I can.  Wow, seems I need to take some of my own advise. 

I so appreciate your honesty and willingness to ask for help.
That will be a great example to all of us who will undoubtedly go through those times
when we want to hide what's going on.
I would follow up on the plan you got from Jackie and take it one day, even one hour at a time if need be.
And remember, if you screw up today...it doesn't mean you've blown it forever. You can start your day over at any time you want.