Just my personal food diary, post here 4 accountability

So here I am .. agian after 5 years , with a food diary Again.... ug
 Gotta lose those stubborn 40 lbs left and I think this will help
1/8/08 @ 204lbs ( lost total 134lbs)
1 yoart w/ table spoon of whey protine
vites
4 piece chik nug
1 1/2 beef fresco taco
bottle water
cup tofu lite flour/ fried
glass white wine
1 small green apple 2 small necturines
 handfull o pistachios
glass water
pac ciggs
1/9/08 @ 203bs ( lost total 135lbs)
glass of shake =1/2 glass fat free milk/ 4 ice cubes/scoop slim fast high protine choc/whey protine 1 scoop vanilla
Vites
2glass water
2 beef freaco taco
6 bites fish
7 glass wine
pac ciggs
1/10/08 @ 203bs ( lost total 135lbs)
 4 glass water
vites
cup tom/cuc/onion/celery/balsamic binager salad
3 bites fish
2 glass water
2 oyster 6 bites fish/avacado dip
2 glass wine
3 handfulls whiet cheder popcorn
cup tom/cuc/onion/celery/balsamic binager salad
glass water
small hambrger on 1/2 bread
1/2 cup tofu pasta bake
pac ciggs
1/11/08 @ 203bs ( lost total 135lbs)
vites
1 1/2 green beans
glass water
8 pieces choc
1/2 turkey sandwich(lean turkey/lettus/tom/mayo/onion/matzarella on 1/2 roll
3 party wings
side salad
4 rolls
pac ciggs
1/12/08 @ 203bs ( lost total 135lbs)
glass of shake =1/2 glass fat free milk/ 4 ice cubes/scoop slim fast high protine choc/whey protine 1 scoop vanilla
Vites
2glass water
7 chock
salad
haddock soup
3 oysters in beacon
1/2 handfull of pistachios
1/4 cup rasberry/blueberrys
3 glass wine
pac ciggs
1/13/08 @ 202bs ( lost total 136lbs)
glass water
vites
2 choc
2 slices ahi tuna sheared w/ 5 spoon wild rice
small hamburger on 1/2 bun
4 chick nuggetts
5 glass wine
chgicken sadwich on 1/2 bun w/ lettus tom mayo
cup chilli
pac ciggs
1/14/08 @ 202bs ( lost total 136lbs)
glass water
vites
2 choc
yogart with blue and rasberrys
2 beef fresco tako
4 small homemade beef fresco lettus wrap atco
3 slices garlic cheese bread
2 glass water
 1 high protine vite shake drink
 small bag doritos
pac ciggs
1/15/08 @ 200bs ( lost total 138lbs)
glass water
vites
yogart with blue and rasberrys and a spoon of whey powder
 2 fresco beef tacos soft/hard
glass wine
cup of chowder
1/2 bowl salad
chicken buffalo bonless fried strips
handfull o caramels
glass water
pac ciggs
1/16/08 @ 200bs ( lost total 138lbs)
glass water
vites
yogart with blue and rasberrys and a spoon of whey powder
bit of stuffed shell veggy
3 glass water2 stuffed shells
2 fresco beef tacos soft/hard
 3 glass wine
handfull o caramels
glass water
pac ciggs
1/17/08 @ 200bs ( lost total 138lbs)
glass water
vites
2  stuffed shell
vegy medly
 too much booz/wine
squash soup
hamburger and 4 chix nuggets
glass water
pac ciggs
1/18/09 @ 199bs ( lost total 139lbs)
3 glass water
vites
2  stuffed shell
I FORGET WHAT ELSE... meet a new man the other day and today met his friends (Mike mike mike)...hmmmm that mike is ....aahhhhhh *heart flutters* just....wow
1/19/09 @ 199bs ( lost total 139lbs) ahhhh blisss
1/20/09 @ 198bs ( lost total 140lbs)  hummmmm 
1/21 - 3/ 5/09 @ 190lbs               
ALL is a blurr, During these 3 months I was put threw the ringer on an emotional rollarcoaster like i never thought was possible. I didnt work out hardly, smoked freakin 2 packs a day and drank more than I have in 3 months than I have in years as I was dating "the Mike" and dealt with way 2 many head games...so i got a clear look at what was going on and said "eff this, im out and i will never be this blinded or let my feelings mask what / who is around me".

I'm just curious.  Have you lost all of your weight and then put on 40 pounds or are they what's been left to lose right from the beginning?  I'm just over a year out, and I'm deathly afraid of gaining the weight back.  Anyway, you've taken the biggest step to getting on track as far as I'm concerned -- you're making yourself accountable.  I say that because I wasn't accountable for all that I ate during the holidays last month.  Luckily, I gained only 2 pounds and have since lost them, but I noticed that by not writing down everything that hit my lips, it made it easier to slip an extra bite or this or that in.  

Do you have a set amount of calories and protein/fat/carbs in mind for your daily intake? 

3/9/09 @ 198lbs ( lost total 140lbs) my bliss is gone, he's not ready for me or anyone
Time ta get my sad ass back on track here and stop the pity party! 
not a great start taday, but a start just the same!
 glazed donut
myoplex protine drink
beef resco taco
chicken broiled breast w/ sause n cheese
1/2 cup pasta
1/4 cup salad
1/2 cup fruit salad
4 bits peperioni
 vites
1 glass water
no exersize or tan
3/10/09 @ 195lbs ( lost total 143lbs)
lots a carbs taday, more than usual. I think getting back to my work out routine charged up my bod and its cravin the energy boosters gotta watch those carbs better
vitamens
3. oz white lindt choc
cashues
brishoto 2 piece
salad
4 cheese ravioli
1 french bread pizza shroom
glass wine
pack ciggs
2 waters
tan 10min / weights 45min / bike 30min / eqlips 20min
3/11/09 @ 193lbs ( lost total 145lbs)
lots a calories taday, barly excersized I started my period and was muchly needed
135cal @ 3 piece chix nugg
100cal @ 1/2 small double hamburger on 1 slice bun/pick/onion/must/ket
300cal @ myoplex shake
220cal @ 2 protine bullet shot
???cal @ orange
???cal @ cup beansprouts / cashews/ humin sauce/ garlic
???cal @ broiled steack/ garlic/butter/oregano/basil/parm cheese
???cal  @ 7 carrots n dip
???cal @ 1/2 cup ben n jerry choc ny chunc****cream bliss in a tub
vitamens
1 1/2 pack ciggs
3 waters
yoga 30min
3/12/09 @ 193lbs ( lost total 145lbs) cramping and dont feel likw workin out 
300cal @ myoplex shake
???cal @ broiled steack/ garlic/butter/oregano/basil/parm cheese
120cal @  cup pasta w/ sausage
???cal @ cup greenbeans / cashews/ humin sauce/ garlic
vitamens
1 +pack ciggs
2 waters
 pilates 20min
3/13/09 @ 196lbs ( lost total 142lbs) cramping and dont feel likw workin out  pigged out
300cal @ myoplex shake
???cal @ seafood raw bar a lota everything
vitamens
1 +pack ciggs
2 waters
6 martini/wine
3/17/09 @ 192lbs ( lost total 146lbs)
slice pizza
4 bites ice cream
5 spoons pasta
5 bites breaded chicken
1/4 myoplex
vitamens
1 +pack ciggs
1 waters
no owrk out

So I have a goal to go skydiving!!! 
The max weight is 180lbs that means I have 3 months to save $200.00 and weigh 175lbs
or I will have to wait untill next year to go.

5/1/09 @ 192lbs ( lost total as of surgery about 140lbs)
Done with men.
Time for me 2 b about me 4 me

my daily vitamines consist of = BIOTIN@1000mcg  B1@250mg  B6@200mg  B12@2000mcg  CALCIUM@600mg+vidD D3@1000iu   E@400iu    FOLICACID@800mg   IRON@65mg  OMEGA3/6/9@complex   ROYALJELLY@500mg  VIACTIVEMULTIVITIMINandCALCIUMwithD@500/K@40/calcium@500MG 

my plan consists weekly mix up of =
PILATES@30min  TAN@10min  WIEGHTS@45min  CARDIO@45min   GARDENING@10mindaily4meditation     ROLLERBLADINGorMtBIKING@15mindaily
 
  WATER@8glasses   YOGART@WHEYspoonfull  MYOPLEX@protineshake  PROTINE@bullet

WAKE@7am    LOGON@thisite/accountability  BED@11pm  REFOCUS@myself/trev/work$$/friends/possitiveenergy/meetmygoal150    

Great start today! 
135cal @ 3 piece pizza
100cal @ small piece b day cake
300cal @ myoplex shake
vitamens
1/2 pack ciggs
3 waters
yoga 30min
rollerblad 20min
5/2/09 @ 192lbs { away from goal 18 lbs}
1 pack ciggy
all Vitemins
8 glasses water
240cal @ yogart with Whey spoonful = 30g Protine
200cal @ part of a whapper                  = ??
190cal @ Pure Peotine bar                    = 20g Protine
175cal @ doritos                                      = 4g
265cal @ icecream cake
 ?           @ tomato/cuc/onion salad       = ??
ACTIVE = Rollerblading 15min     Cardio 15min     Weights 30min  
LOVING = Gardening/yardwork 4hours      Tan 10min        
PRODUCTIVE= Cleaned out fridge. Vacumed out car.  Printed my empowrment
PAMPERED =  myself w/ pedi + mani /wine/ tv.       FEEL AWSOME an texted that to my GF's.
5/3/09 @ 188lbs { away from goal 15 lbs}
all Vitemins
pack ciggy
6 water
doritos
cake
icecream
tom/cuc/onion salad
cheese
candy
pizza
ACTIVE = none
LOVING =  hanging out with gf  / party for trev
PRODUCTIVE=  none
PAMPERED = smoke /drank wine
5/4/09 @ 191lbs { away from goal 16 lbs}
all Vitemins
8 glasses water
5 ciggs
320cal @ slimfast protine shake+ with Whey spoonful = 40g Protine
120cal @ protine bnar                                                             = 19g Protine
Pizza, chips, candy, nut mixure
ACTIVE = Mt biking 30min     Cardio 45min     Weights 45min  
LOVING =  Tan 10min  
PRODUCTIVE =  hung out an played with Trev all day, bought bike rack, large gardening pot
PAMPERED =  watched movie with b/f and the kids
5/5/09 @ 193lbs { 18lbs away from goal  lbs}
all Vitemins
8 glasses water
240cal @ yogart with Whey spoonful = 30g Protine
ACTIVE =    Cardio 45min     Weights 45min  
LOVING =  Tan 10min  
PRODUCTIVE =  promised staycie to join her mon-thur mornings at Golds gym 2.
PAMPERED =
5/5/09 @ 192lbs { 17 lbs away from goal  lbs}
all Vitemins
8 glasses water
240cal @ yogart with Whey spoonful = 30g Protine
ice cream
candy chips
eggplant parm
3 protine bars
protinbe shake
ACTIVE =     Cardio 30min     Weights 30min  
LOVING =    Tan 10min 
PRODUCTIVE =  bills
PAMPERED =
5/6/09 @ 192 lbs { 17 lbs away from goal  lbs}
all Vitemins
8 glasses water
pack ciggy
2 fresco tacos
and a bunch of junck food
pasta
ACTIVE = Rollerblading 40min
LOVING =  watched Underworld 2  
PRODUCTIVE =  bills
PAMPERED = date with Josh wine tasting @ MT
5/7/09 @ 192 lbs { 17 lbs away from goal  lbs}
pac ciggy
all Vitemins
8 glasses water
more crap... next wek I need to do a better job of sticking to my plan and logging food
ACTIVE =
LOVING =   
PRODUCTIVE =  reports
PAMPERED =
5/8/09 @ 190 lbs { 15 lbs away from goal  lbs}
pac ciggy
all Vitemins
8 glasses water
more crap... next wek I need to do a better job of sticking to my plan and logging food
ACTIVE = Cardio 30min     Weights 30min  
LOVING =   10min Tan
PRODUCTIVE =  reports cleaning laundry
PAMPERED =  pedi
5/9/09 @ 190 lbs { 15 lbs away from goal  lbs}
pac ciggy
all Vitemins
8 glasses water

more crap... next wek I need to do a better job of sticking to my plan and logging food
ACTIVE = Cardio 30min     Weights 30min  

LOVING =   10min Tan
PRODUCTIVE = 
PAMPERED = 

So I have a goal to go skydiving!!! 
The max weight is 180lbs that means I have 3 months to save $200.00 and weigh 175lbs
or I will have to wait untill next year to go.

6/15/09 @ 187lbs ( lost total as of surgery about 155lbs) 
Love will find me this time. When it does, I will b ready  
Time for me 2 b about me, 4 me

my daily vitamines consist of UPDATED VITAMINS=
A@8000BIOTIN@5000mcg8000IU  

B1@250mg 
B5@500mg  (pantothenic Acid)
B6@200mg 
B12@2000mcg 
CALCIUM@600mg+vidD 
C@500mg
D3@1000iu 
E@400iu   
FOLICACID@800mg
RON@65mg
OMEGA3/6/9@complex
Resvinatrol@anymg
ROYALJELLY@500mg
StJohnsWort@omg
GINKOBILOBA@120mg
VIACTIVEMULTIVITIMIN
CALCIUMwithD@500/K@40/calcium@500MG 

my plan consists weekly mix up of =
PILATES@30min  TAN@10min  WIEGHTS@45min  CARDIO@45min   READING@selfcenter
 
WATER@8glasses 
YOGART@WHEYspoonfull 
MYOPLEX@protineShake
orBarPROTINE@bullet

WAKE@7am    LOGON@thisite/accountability  BED@11pm  REFOCUS@myself/trev/work$$/friends/possitiveenergy/meetmygoal150    


6/09 threw 12/09  
i managed 2 get as low as 170lbs and in a size 10 jeans over the summer HOWEVER with the carppy winter weather i creeped up 2 195lbs and size 14ish jeans...

I have not gone sky diving, i will next summer
I have zip lined, kayaked, rock climbed, mnt biked, been very scocial and about me.

2010 is gonna be my refocus on my health and weight....i have a few more weeks to ease in2 it, "here i go again on my own"


12/15/09 @ 193lbs ( lost around 140lbs)

all vites
0 wine
glass water
1 pac ciggs
4 melba toast, with 6 pices gouda cheese and 1/2 tomato an balsamic
protine bar 32g protine / 310 cal

12/18/ 09  @ 194lbs ( lost total 145lbs)
NO excersized,  Tanned
???cal @ 4 pieces choc
cup beansprouts / cashews/ humin sauce/ garlic
???cal @ broiled steack/ garlic/butter/oregano/basil/parm cheese
???cal  @ 7 carrots n dip
???cal @ 1/2 cup ben n jerry choc ny chunc****cream bliss in a tub
         vitamens
1 1/2 pack ciggs
         waters
12/21/ 09  @ 189lbs ( lost total 145lbs)
NO excersized,  Tanned
shrimp ring
???cal @ handfull pistachios
280cal  @ protine bar
???cal @ meatballs an whole weat pasta
   all  vitamens
1 1/2 pack ciggs
    2     waters
12/22/ 09  @ 194lbs ( lost total 145lbs)
NO excersized,  Tanned
???cal @ 4 pieces choc
cup beansprouts / cashews/ humin sauce/ garlic
???cal @ broiled steack/ garlic/butter/oregano/basil/parm cheese
???cal  @ 7 carrots n dip
???cal @ 1/2 cup ben n jerry choc ny chunc****cream bliss in a tub
         vitamens
1 1/2 pack ciggs
         waters