9/4 QOTD: What is the nicest thing someone's done for you lately?
I went to the movies tonight with some friends from work (we saw Mamma Mia, and I loved it BTW). Afterward, we went to the Back Room for a drink, except that I drank water. Anyway, I ordered a shrimp ****tail, which is made of 3 huge shrimp and some ****tail sauce - delicious. This month is my one year anniversary. Two of my friends paid for my shrimp in honor of the anniversary. I thought that was really nice of them.
You would think that I did really well following the rules today, but read on . . .
But I also have a confession. Why I need to say this, I don't know, but I must come clean. I ate really badly today. I really never do that. I hadn't eaten enough during the day today and walked home from work. It was hot, and by the time I got home, my legs were really shaking. I had leftover fish for dinner: 3 oz. haddock, 1/2 c. snowpeas and 1/2 c. rice. That was fine, but then I had a whole piece of my Mom's cheesecake. Aaaaargh, I'd been able to resist it for over a week, but tonight I gave in and ate the dang thing. I was so angry at myself. Plus I was petrified that I would dump while at the movies. But I didn't. At the movies, I had about a cup of popcorn. Then at the Back Room, someone brought out a giant ice cream sundae for the table because one of the women I was with was having a birthday tomorrow. I also had two bites of a quesadilla. What was I thinking????? I am furious with myself right now AND I'm not feeling sick. I wish I would dump on all that stuff, but it's not happening. When I put everything in Fitday, it turns out that I ate 1900 calories today! I usually average about 1300. Considering all that I ate, that's not as bad as it could have been, but they were really bad choices. I just don't want to go down that road. Somebody please yell at me!
You would think that I did really well following the rules today, but read on . . .
But I also have a confession. Why I need to say this, I don't know, but I must come clean. I ate really badly today. I really never do that. I hadn't eaten enough during the day today and walked home from work. It was hot, and by the time I got home, my legs were really shaking. I had leftover fish for dinner: 3 oz. haddock, 1/2 c. snowpeas and 1/2 c. rice. That was fine, but then I had a whole piece of my Mom's cheesecake. Aaaaargh, I'd been able to resist it for over a week, but tonight I gave in and ate the dang thing. I was so angry at myself. Plus I was petrified that I would dump while at the movies. But I didn't. At the movies, I had about a cup of popcorn. Then at the Back Room, someone brought out a giant ice cream sundae for the table because one of the women I was with was having a birthday tomorrow. I also had two bites of a quesadilla. What was I thinking????? I am furious with myself right now AND I'm not feeling sick. I wish I would dump on all that stuff, but it's not happening. When I put everything in Fitday, it turns out that I ate 1900 calories today! I usually average about 1300. Considering all that I ate, that's not as bad as it could have been, but they were really bad choices. I just don't want to go down that road. Somebody please yell at me!
"I am not the skin I'm in, but the soul within."
Sorry, can't really yell at you.....what the heck were you thinking!!! Okay, now that that is out of the way, don't beat yourself up. If that was the first time you have slipped in a year, you should be proud of yourself. You are also aware of what happened, so it will not happen again. I used to be such a closet eater, that I was really worried about that. I think it is great you could admit and share. So talk to yourself, but don't beat yourself down too much. You have come too far, and you are such a wonderful person.
Well I can't say that it's the first time I've slipped up in a year because I have eaten bad stuff at other times. I think the thing that scares me about last night is that there was no planning involved. On the few other times that I've eaten something bad, it was planned for. I mean that I saved calories and fats throughout the day because I knew that I would have a cookie or some popcorn or something. Then I ate a pre-measured portion and was done with it. Last night, I didn't do any of that. I just shoved it all in my mouth like I used to do in the old days.
"I am not the skin I'm in, but the soul within."
Well, perfect I am not! But I have to laugh because it's always been a joke in our family. When my Dad was alive, he always said that he was perfect. Since he passed on, someone had to carry the torch, so it's been something I've said about myself (tongue-in-cheek, of course) for over 30 years!
"I am not the skin I'm in, but the soul within."
My boss is a terrific person. He is so understanding, laid back and kind (which is very weird for an attorney!). Anyway, he was very nervous about my surgery. I think it was because he really did not understand it at all. He has always been very supportive of my struggle with weight. He has seen me both big and small. When I came back to work after surgery, he gave me a big hug, and said "welcome back...we missed you". He also gave me a huge stuffed moose that stands, and is posable. (did I mention I LOVE moose, both real and stuffed!) It felt so good to know that I was missed, and thought of by him and my other co-workers.
I love moose too! I've only ever seen one in my life. It was on the side of the road licking salt, I think. It was a small one, and I wasn't even sure that it was a moose until I passed it. I'd love to see a big one with a rack someday. We live in Manchester. A few years ago, a moose came walking by our house, right down the middle of the street. Unfortunately, we weren't home to see it :(
"I am not the skin I'm in, but the soul within."