Update on Dr P and me

Hey everyone.  Just talked with AS again,  Apparently Dr. P is going in for emergency surgery tomorrow, for what I do not know and probably won't.  My thoughts are with her though and hope she makes a quick recvoery.  They won't even schedule a surgery date now with her since it "depends on her recovery".  So, everyone shoot your thoughts and prayers to her for a safe surgery.

As for me, I am still a little, okay a lot, pissed off.  I'm pretty down now and the thought of rescehduling 3+ weeks out is something that doesn't make me happy.  I was told by the receptionist that she will talk to Betty, who I gather is Dr. Loosers secretary to see when he has available.  Of course he has his own surgeries and from what I am told they can't always get an OR.  So they have to deal with that.

I guess I am just really feeling left out.  This came out of left field (I am sure for everyone) and has really flown me for a loop.  My DH, bless him, has been so incredibly supportive and knows I hurt right now, both physically and emotionally.  I am sure after tomorrow passes and I get a date again I will feel better.

I also need to rant a little bit.  It doesn't feel like AS is 'working for me'.  In my own opinion, I think they have a responsibility to me and the others that have their sugeries cancelled.  If Dr. P is unable to do the surgery, then the other partners should fit those that had her in.  I suppose I see why they can't do it tomorrow still if Dr. P is in surgery.  For some reason I figured since they had 1 other surgeon scheduled to assist, it would be simple to get the other. 

Perhaps I am thinking of this too much as a business?  I am paying you therefore you should work for me?  I dunno.  Maybe thats the wrong way to look at it.

I also on't want to **** anyone off, and I am certainly sensitive to the situation.  But I am also having to deal with this myself - I've been off some of my rheumatoid arthritis meds since 2 weeks ago and could not take them until 2 weeks/month after my surgery.  Well, I can't take it now either because it needs to be held 2+ weeks before the surgery.

Anyway, am I whining?  Yes.  I know it.  I'm depressed that I have to continue the diet of shakes and being hungry. 

I should have worked harder.  If I just lost the required weight faster I could have had my surgery in early August.  Why does this **** have to happen to me?

Bah.

Jenn, I'm so sorry you have to go through this. It's very disappointing. I remember how those few days before surgey felt and to have it cancelled well it really stinks. But that said you have to stay focused because with some luck you may go sooner then you expect. It's perfectly ok and normal to feel p'd. It's your life we're talking about. Betty at AS is not one of my favorite people so for now try to be nice to her to stay on her good side. If you end up with Dr Looser he'll do a good job. He's not warm and fuzzy at all but Dr. Gens will assist and he is wonderful. I saw him more in the hospital.  I too was on an anti-inflamatory drug before surgery and have not had to take it again since so don't give up hope. Please kepp us posted. I'm anxious for you too. Please know I'm thinking of you.

Thanks all.  I know I am whining and complaining.  I feel awful for Dr. P too.

I got a call this afternoon basically saying well we won't be able to talk to Dr. P about rescheduling until Friday.  Which is fine, she needs to focus on getting better.  When I asked about Looser or Gens filling in, she (Jainy?) said they couldn't find an OR as they are hard to come by and this surgery is hardly emergent.

And that was it.  No 'I wish we could do more' or 'we're really working hard'.  I guess thats the biggest kick in the pants.

Hi Jenn,
 I am so sorry you are having to wait.
I've been in your place when you are all ready and want to move forward!
Think of it this way..perhaps there is some reason unknown to you for the wait?
If not, I think Dr. P is worth the wait. She did the surgery for both my partner
and I and she has been absolutely wonderful.
Please hang in there!
Bobbi

Aww, Jenn, who wouldn't be feeling pretty sore.  Of course it is just life that Dr. P has to have surgery and I'm sure we all wish her a speedy recovery.  I had hoped the other docs could step in and cover her cases but I guess not and I won't even speculate on that.  But it is a dang shame.  And for you it is more like a tragedy.  Don't be blaming yourself for anything.  In fact, maybe there isn't any blame needed at all-for anyone.  It is a hard thing but stuff like this just plain ole happens sometimes.  I agree that I'd feel a lot better to have a new date set.  Hopefully you well get something sooner rather than later.  I'm so glad you have DH's support.  Are you very uncomfortable without your usual meds?  Maybe your GP could help with something else meantime?  Treading