Stupid

So, my period is due any day now.  And I get a little "off" durring my period.  I used to binge eat for about four to five days before my period would start and the two days before were the worst.  The first three months post-RNY, I didn't have any of that.  Last month, I noticed I ate about 400 calories a day more the half-week before my period, but it was all stuff I should be eating anyway and I really was hungry when I ate, not bored, miserable, etc.  My weight steadied the week I ate more and the week of my period (I bloat alot) but then it fell off pretty steeply when the hormal "gunk" passed and I got back to my usual.

Well, this month I've been hungrier than usual but also CRAVING CRAPPY FOOD.  Which has NOT happened to me since surgery.  So yesterday I made chocolate chip cookies "for the kids".  I checked the recipe and they had 15 grams of sugar each.  Not SOOOOO bad.  I can probably have just one, right?  I mean, I was REALLY craving a sugar fix.  I chose RNY instead of Lap Band cause I know I get this way.  They kept CALLING me and so finally, you guessed it...

I ate one.  Quickly.  In about five minutes.  Fast forward about 15 minutes and guess what?  Yup.  It worked the way it's supposed to.  There IS a cost for straying from the path.  OUCH!  I dumped.  I deserved it.  I was stupid. 

There are still chocolate chip cookies in the house.  I am still all PMS-y.  And yet I have NO desire to touch any of those cookies.  EVER AGAIN.  :-)

I wish I dumped more easily than I do.  I can probably eat 2 cookies without a problem.  By the third, I think I'd be pushing it, but still, I wish I couldn't eat any of them. 

Yikes, Umber!  Don't know whether to say this is good news or bad but probably it is both, right?  I'm glad it's over and I will redouble my efforts to come up with ns options for myself in my post-op life.  Popsicles won't aways do it for me, of that I'm sure.  Did you ahve the classic symptoms - weak, sweaty, had to lie down?  Treading

It was definately a good thing.  If those cookies are still calling, I can't hear them anymore!  I had pouch pain, exhaustion and vomiting.  It was pain like when your overfull but MUCH worse, some cramping, a bit of vomting and then I was in bed for the night.  If I hadn't I would have been asleep with my head in the toliet.  By morning, all better, but LESSON LEARNED. 

I even HAVE some small sugar free good-for-protein "treats" I've made from eggface's blog, or protein faux-ice-creams and stuff.  I know how to do that.  I just got all crabby and rebellious "But I want to do it ANYWAY" like a 5 year old and guess what?  Right.  It doesn't work that way anymore.  I was really kinda being a ***** all day and I knew I shouldn't have eaten the cookie when I did.  So actually, it's a very good thing and I admit, I totally deserved that. 

Today I have an odd craving to lick all the salt off the tortilla chips.  Not even to eat them, just to lick all the salt off them.  And then put them back.  I'm not doing it because my husband would think I was nuts.  I am guessing I've hit the point where I've lost enough that my hormones are just going CRAZY and therefore my week before Aunt Flo, which was always more symptomatic than when she was visiting, it just really wacked this month.  *shrug*

I promise if I develop pica, I'll call the doctor.  :-)

LOL, hormornal 'gunk'.   I get thw same way, Umber and am afraid I will do the same thing.  AND am getting the RNY instead of the band for the same reason as you.  I am glad it 'worked' for you - sometimes we need negative reinforcement.  Hope you feel better!

Well Umber it was a good lesson learned. I hope you are feeling better. My periods are so sporatic (I'm going to be 50 in October) and I haven't gotten one since March. I too crave sweets those days before maybe I'm done!! I hope.
I saw my daughters dump and I do not want to go through that - yuk.

I needed electoshock therapy to change my lifestyle.  Luckily, I got it.  Sucked for a night, but nothing near so tempting today!

Yep its happend to me for the very same reason.  I try to hit the fruit a little harder when that craving kicks in at that TOM.  I have learned my lessons with anything with more than 12g of sugar - And don't even get me started on fats!!!  We all have our weak moments..... and then we pay!  The joys of being a woman!

I am praying right now as I read this----OH LORD< PLEASE LET ME DUMP!  This is a major reason why I am having RNY instead of lap band myself. 

Sorry, I know you probably don't want to hear this---but GOOD for you.  I hope it wasn't tooooo bad for you.  Save this post, print it out and stick it on the cookie jar!

Michelle

Oh trust me, I'm SO not interested now.  It really did the trick.  My husband said it was risky, if I hadn't dumped I probably would have kept eating the cookies till I DID and thus gone into a cookie binge.  So Thank God I Dump, too. 

Today I got to feeling peckish, so I made a quesadilla with sausage, black beans, and cheese.  Used the low carb tortillas.  I put non-fat sour cream and taco sauce on it.  Yummy!!!!!   It was the "soft taco size" and I could eat 1/3rd of it.  I have half in the fridge for later and the last peice went to the dog.  It was good thouigh.  So I'm going to try to repress the sweet craving fiend but indulge the super spicey girl part.  ;-)

I am having one sugar free Hershey chocolate mini-bar at bedtime, though.  If it sents off a binge, I'll give them all away to keep them out of the house.  If it doesn't then it'll be my little week-before-the-period indulgence.