Losing steam and stuck in the middle of a tunnel

Thats the only way I can describe how I am feeling now.  I've gotten a bunch of things done and am roughly in the middle now, but feel like I am losing steam on getting things done and there isn't an end in sight.  In another week and a half, I have all my diagnostic testing done, I still have 2 more behavior mod classes to go to ( and it sucks to lose an evening, nevermind multiple ones) and another NUT visit.  On top of losing the weight, which has been very difficult for me from the beginning as well as scheduling an appt with the surgeon (whenever that will be) and the insurance stuff. On top of trying to stay on track towards a goal I can't even see or almost see. It's frustrating.  You go crashing out of the gate, but half way around the track slow to a walk and you realize you are right back to where you are every time you 'diet'.  Add some issues with joints and mobility and the need to exercise to lose weight it makes it even harder. I am probably making this out to be way worse than it is, and someday soon I am sure I will look back on this and laugh after I have surgery for being so impatient. Just wondering if others have or had felt the same way. Off to the gym and the behavior mod class. :)

Jen - Trust me - I know where you are coming from.  I had everything decided and started the process in Oct 06.  In Jan 07, I ended up with an accidental finding of a blocked coronary artery and was hospitalized having angio plasty with stent placement - so now a delay.  Then started everything again and in Aug  ended up in atrial fibrillation and was back in the Hospital to have my heart shocked back into normal rhythm and then put on coumadin - ok another delay.  Finally back to everything again in Oct.  Finally finished all the pre-op "stuff" and got my date for Dec. 10th !  I did not think the day would ever come and then when it did - OH MY GOD !  Have faith and just keep on working towards one thing - I am doing this to better my health and my life.  It will finally all be worth it in the end. Carol

Your experience seems to be fairly normal. I started the process last May, and planned to have surgery ASAP-- but then life got in the way. I had a hard time losing the weight, and then all sorts of things kept popping up.

It's hard to imagine what your life will be like after you've had the surgery and lose weight. Just keep plugging along! Every time you check something off the list, it's one less thing that you have to think about.

Hey Jenn, Hi All,  Even me, slow-poke that I am, can relate.  I haven't regretted taking the time to do research or set things up at a snail's pace.  But I did find my focus and attention severely taxed recently when my MIL was transferred to a hospice house.  Suddenly the whole time-consuming process seemed so absurd and overblown and overwhelming.  How on earth can we be expected to stick with this and remember the bazillion appointments and techniques and so on?  I had a few bad weeks. Eventually I could see that it was sticking with the program that was tiring me out.  I've made many lifestyle changes and suddenly it got a lot harder to maintain them when I had hospice to deal with.  But life will always hand me new challenges and even new tragedies.  So, I had to have a heart to heart with myself to be sure that I was prepared to stick with this for good - no matter what - even when it's hard-even when life throws me a curve ball.   After all, getting to my surgery date isn't an ending of anything.  That day is the beginning, right?  I hope it will be the beginning of many wonderful things but it will also be the beginning of a planned eating and exercise program that I'll have to maintain forever - with support group meetings - with NUT visits - with blood work -and probably counseling (speaking for myself only).  So, I'm trying not to think of this pre-op time as a process heading towards a goal but as the goal itself.  Some days it works for me.  Others ...well...Take good care - Treading