Getting closer---getting more afraid!

So, I have done it all.  Now I have to wait for that phone call. 

All the tests are done, the mandatory weight loss has been documented (YEAH, finally got serious and did a few weeks of Atkins induction and got it off....I thought it would never happen), did my six months of montly meetings with my primary, went to the mandatory meetings plus some---fought with my primary's office about records (yeah, I thought 'my' doctors office would be different!).

At DHC you have to have all that done before they will even meet with you at all.  So, I expect this week I will get a call to see the RN & nutritionist. 

Last night I had a nightmare.  Okay, I never remember my dreams---hardly ever.  I dreamed I was pre-op talking to Dr. Gould and crying.  Not just normal crying---sobbing about how he couldn't let me die, that I have three little boys that need me....'please don't let me die'---'don't let me be that 1%' (which means I have been paying attention to those statitsitcs!)  It was WAY over the top of how I would ever act emotionally.  I think I may be far more afraid than I have even allowed myself to believe..... Michelle 

Your fears are perfectly normal.  And I can't say that you won't have complications with your surgery, but I didn't, and believe me, having the surgery was the BEST decision of my life.  You will feel so good after it's all said and done.  Your life will be forever changed!  Good luck. 

Of course you're afraid, and for very logical reasons.  You will be going through major surgery.  And, after, your life and your relationship with food will be forever changed.   Please try to remember that you qualified for this surgery because the risk to your life having this surgery is LESS than staying obese.  See if you can use this to soothe some of your fears. Talk with your doctor too. They can really give a lot of reassurance. Good Luck!

Hi, I don't think you would be normal if you didn't worry. I just knew I was going to die... but guess what I am still here !! I know if I hadn't done this surgery I would have been dead from all of my health problems. I know you are scared and you have every right to be. You will be fine, then you will be another happy person with all of your weight loss. I will say a prayer for you. Let me know when you get a date. Everyone on OH is here for you. Take care and just keep busy and prepare your house so when you come home it will be easier on you until you are fully recovered.  Good Luck !!  Roxanne

I freaked out too!   I was convinced I wasn't going to wake up... but i did!!  And I have had it pretty easy since too.  Trust me all of those surgeons know exactly what they are doing.  Go to the support groups and talk to people who have been thru it.  I went two nights before surgery and it helped me so much. Good luck!

Hi there,     Are you feeling better about things today?  I sure hope so.  With all the work and planning that we go through for this surgery, it's no wonder to me that we do find our emotions are a step or two behind.  I operate on the To Do List Theory of Life.  If I put it on the list, I do it.  Maybe I will add something to my list like... 1.  pay attention to fearful dreams, 2.  calm fears.  Oh, if only it where that simple, eh?  Sending good vibes your way-Treading