Fat life=Big hole=Ready to die...

Im happy for all of you who have had or are going to have the surgery...and have the money or coverage for it. Ive spent a large portion of my life fat and unproductive, digging myself a deep hole of depression. Now older, "wiser" and supposed to know better, I find myself with no lasting motivation to change it. I will no longer live as an unproductive person, a waste of space. My only roadblock? I currently have no money for a gun...funny, no job and no money, but then, if I had the self confidence to keep a job, I wouldnt need to die. You folks can call it what you want...pitty pot, feeling sorry for myself, whatever you want. All I know is that Im living for nothing, and I dont want to live for that reason anymore...

Patrick, please, please call someone for help. You may not know why you are here, but God has a purpose for your life. As long as you are breathing, you have hope. God does not want you to give up. We are all here for a reason, and there are people who care. Please, call a minister, your mental health association, someone you can talk to. You are loved, whether you know it or not. I don't know you or anything about you, but I do know that you are a brother in this life and you are loved. Ask for prayers, whether you believe or not, prayers for you will be answered. Maybe not as soon as you want, but God does hear our prayers and answers them. Please, reach out and get help. Your live is valuable. We care about you. E-mail me if you want to talk. I'll try to help any way that I can. KathyP

Patrick, just the fact that you posted on this message board indicates you do want help. We are here! I am not from Nebraska, but, am willing to be supportive in whatever other way I can. Stay with us, Patrick! Barb

Patrick; PLEASE DON'T END YOUR LIFE!!! God has put you on this earth for a reason. Contact the nearest mental health facility. Better yet, drive to the nearest ER and tell them what's going on. We've been in your shoes, and we're here to help you. Reach out your hand, and we'll grab it and hold on. We're here for you, buddy.

Patrick, Please don't do anything that would end your life, you are here for a purpose. Only God knows his plan for us.....I won't pretend to know your struggles but I will say prayers for your safety and hope that at this time you know that you are not alone that we are all here to support you. This is a safe place to vent and get support in whatever aspect of life you need it. Reach out to us ~Melissa

You are not a waste of space or unloved! Seek help! Call your nearest hospital! You will find hundreds of people who care and who can get you the help that you need!

Patrick-- I know I don't have the words to make things 'all better' for you--but I can tell you that I love you even if I don't know you. More importantly, God loves you. You are here for a reason. Don't give up--call for help. Post back and let us know how you are. We care about you. Hugs.. Michelle

Patrick, PLEASE DON'T DO ANYTHING TO END YOUR LIFE. I am begging you. You are NOT a waste of space. We care about you, as I'm sure many others do as well. PLEASE GET SOME HELP. Please call someone. ~Christine

Hi there Patrick - I echo the sentiments of those who have already responded to you and want you to know how important you are to your family. I can only imagine the devastation they would feel by losing you. I empathize with you - but you are worthy of love and you have it. We love you here and are available to you for support, to cry with, and just to listen. Your life is valuable and it's value is immeasurable. Please talk with a professional - they can help you shine and feel the importance of your life. For what it's worth - you are so important, that God sent His son to die for you, even before you were born. You are deeply loved!!! I'm here for you - I don't live in Nebraska, but will be here for you nonetheless. In His Service, Robin

Patrick, please get help now. Most of us have experienced depression and know some of the feelings you are having. Please seek help from a professional NOW. All of us on OH are your friends and we will be there to help in any way possible. Please know that we all love you and wish you the best. Hugs, Dana