Officially a year

It has officially been a year since my daughter has walked for taken care of herself or her children or her finances or anything else as far as that goes. It is also officially been a year that my life has been hell. I woke us at about five this morning with the thought that I have no life, all I have is resposiblities and work and expectations from everyone around me. The really scarey part was and is that I don't want to live this way anymore and I can find no way out of it, there fore I really don't want to live. I went through WLS and about died so I could have a life and I still don't have a life. Sure I am smaller and in better health, but I have no life. I had reached goal and now have put some of it back on. I know the cause, stress, insomnia and M and M's. You know that just somehow isn't right. I can't eat things that are good for me, but M and M's and Kissables go down slick as a whistle. Oh well, enough of my pity pot. Just had to vent to someone somewhere. Hazel

Hey Hazel I know you don't know me but believe me when I tell you that I have been that low. But God doesn't give us more than we can handle and it's sounds like you must be a really strong person to have handled all this for so long. Please call a Doctor for some help. I mean that seriously I did and it was the best thing I ever did. Nothing is ever so bad it can't be fixed. I wish you well. Jill

Hi Hazel, You have done wonderful with your weight loss. That is a great accomplishment. You can be proud of yourself for that. You can focus on things that give you pleasure and satisfaction. With all you have had to deal with, you have more than earned it. Take time for you. If you need to, get some counseling to get things figured out. Just because you are skinny doesn't mean all your problems are gone. I hope you feel better soon. Mona