I'am so very sad...I just want to eat....

Hello everyone, Today my heart is so very heavy. I think it weighs the 117lbs I've lost. Sunday the 27th I lost my aunt. She was very sick, but some how she managed to tell me how good I was doing. I hurt so much, I want to cry, but my family sees me as one of the stronger ones. That was when food was my friend, I really want to eat! Iam so selfish, all Im thinking about is food. Im scared of falling backwards, I miss her so much. I should of spent more time with her. I've called my psychologist to get in, but I just feel so bad. Why do things have to hurt? I was so close to her, sometimes I wish we could go back and say what we really feel. I loved her. Brooke

Hi Brooke, I am so sorry for your loss. Take one day at a time. Everyone grieves differently. I am glad you will be seeing your psychologist. If you have to stress eat, make healthy choices. Have cut up fruit and veggies available to grab. Let us know how you are doing. Mona

Hon, I'm so sorry also! Losing someone thats so close to you is the hardest thing on ones heart! I have lost both parents, my father when I was 10, he was 32! My mother dies in 96 and I lost my best friend in 99. I think that was the most tradget time ever... keep in touch and God bless you Beth

Thank-You, I was feeling so weak and vulnerable yesterday. When I've felt that way in the past I always took refuge in FAT GREASEY FOOD. I tried a fry from Mc Donalds last night, man it tasted so bad and made me so sick!!!!! I knew then my aunt Linda was looking down on me saying "girl what are you thinking, after all that work, you go and have a french fry!" She's still with me in my heart. I have to believe! Brooke